I find myself pulled between different worlds all the time and it has taken me a long time to really figure out where that medium is for me. I had many times in my life where the side of me that needs to be wait deep in nature was allowed to run free. Nature makes me spiritually so much stronger and I feel like I can take on the world. I deeply ( Read more... )

Hello all
Yes I am still alive.  I am coming back to live journal for the groups. No one on facebook really talks on groups we just join them and thats about it so yes your see me around again in the group pages. But as far as posting well your have to look me up on facebook.

So after a year of being afaid to ever let anyone touch me for fear that what happended with Jack would just happen again i have steped out of my box taken a deep breath and let go just a little. I met someone. She makes me laugh and she laughs at all my jokes. She has already been to the point where the question of what likeing me means about her ( Read more... )

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I like e-bloger a lot better than bloging in Live J so i'm going to write in that one but crost post in here. I'm going to try to get myself to start writeing stuff down as reading other people's stuff helps me out so much and it is good therapy to get it down.

I have been on T just over 3 months now and I’m ( Read more... )

 I'm sitting here at luch on a stresful day at work thinking about life and everything inbetween and i can't help but keep hearing the words of a co-worker in my head from this movie that we watched in training. "if you can believe it you can see it". I has always hated it when anyone called me a FTM because thats just not who I am. I don't fit ( Read more... )

I had my frist T shoot today. It felt so right and I was so relaxed like it was nothing. Thats just my T that they are putting in my arm thats all. I feel so relaxed and at peace right now. I can't wait until my next one as if my life now comes in two week time slots just waiting what tomorow will bring and how it will all feel. 

I'm really starting to think I might want to go back to school not this fall but the next one. I need more education sheridan wasn't enough for me to have the background i want and the skills i want to really get somewhere. I was planning on working a few years and then doing school part time but now i'm thinking when I so back to school i want to ( Read more... )

You would think my personaily would hurt more than the phyical pain from my chest but i'm at the point where my body hurts so so so so so much more than my boys shouldn't have striper boobs pain ( Read more... )

Masculine
You scored 73 masculinity and 43 femininity! You scored high on masculinity and low on femininity. You have a traditionally masculine personality.
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So i have a meeting with a FTM social worker to talk about getting into the field and what it's like to transition on the job. I'm really excited about it and am really thankful for him to take the time to give me a little bit of insider info. Plus he seems like a really funny great guy so it should be a lot of fun. O and i have a meeting to ( Read more... )