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i feel like this is the place where i don't need to explain my words 
but i do want to share

(yes, i'm back figuring out the relationship between paper journal/thisblog/otherblog)

i don't (yet?) fiercely love my son. i don't feel incredibly passionate about motherhood. 
instead, it has been the most zen experience of my life. more calming, more ( Read more... )

i wrote out the factual, orderly birth story. i can share it if you like ( Read more... )

been reading from this blog over the past few days. whenever i stumble upon the work of a woman writer/poet who is also a mother, i tend to cling to it, reading between the lines, trying to decipher how i will be able to write as a mother, if i will be able to. reading, too, ann lamott's 'operating instructions' and waiting for maso's 'the room lit ( Read more... )

last friday was my final day at work, and so i've been home all week ( Read more... )

baby, i love you ( Read more... )

when warm weather turns cooler, i miss writing. when i move my books and notebooks from one room to another, one house to another, one state to another, i miss writing. when i read about it. when i read anything essentially well crafted. when i stumble upon the things i've already written. when i read old journals. when i listen to interviews with ( Read more... )

Five years ago this week, I was just beginning my first real relationship, falling in love with mutual attraction and agreement and compatibility. It was hot as hell and I didn't have air conditioning and I was drinking a lot of iced tea and coffee. But I didn't care. Because I was in love ( Read more... )

i feel a bit dazed these days ( Read more... )

last night, after stir fry and ice water at dinner, instead of hunkering down in the cool of the basement to watch 'rocky,' we rolled down the windows of mark's car and drove out to provincetown, to the very tip of cape cod, 35 miles from our house if we could fly or swim, but over 70 heading town to the canal, crossing the bridge, and curving back ( Read more... )