Ha ha ha, bless your soul. ... You really think you're in control?

So, I realized something.  For the past two years, everyone was right.  He really wasn't worth my time.  He was my first love, and for that, I suppose I will always be fond of him in a certain way that I will never be able to explain to anyone else, and I cannot ever really compare ( Read more... )

Well which would you prefer?
My finger on the trigger or
Me face down,
Down across your floor?
Well, just so long as this thing's loaded....

God, I got into one of the hardest conversations I have had in a while with a longtime friend tonight.  Totally threw me for a loop.  I had no idea he thought certain things about me, or about us.  But I guess it ( Read more... )

And you were more than just a pretty face.  How you fooled me, I'm still amazed, babe.  But I should have known that I would be another victim of your sexuality.  Now we're done, and over with.  You're no good for me, I know.  Forgive my honesty, but you've gotta go.  I, I don't want you back.

So Ryan Murphy was kind enough to put all of these break ( Read more... )

I don't want to be adored for what I merely represent to you.  I don't want to be your other half... I believe that one plus one make two.  I don't want to be your idol... see this pedestal is high, and I'm afraid of heights.

Today was pretty good.  Was fifteen minutes late to work, got written up again.  Not really worried about it though.  They ( Read more... )

Many precede, and many will follow.  A young girl's dreams no longer hollow.  It takes shape in a place out west.  What it holds for her, she hasn't guessed yet.

*sigh*

I just wish everyone got it.  Everyone who needs to get it, anyway.  It doesn't matter right now what I think or how I feel about anyone, in that sense.  In that love kind of sense.  ( Read more... )

Don't let your life pass you by, and weep not for the memories....

So today was pretty good.  A fairly normal first day back.  And just now I realized that my life has something it has lacked for as long as I can remember - normality.  I am where most nineteen year olds are at.  I am not too far ahead or too far behind.  How stellar.

Anyway... I ( Read more... )

Here we stand, two hearts broken in two.  ... Break those chains that bind you.  You know I still love you, though we touched and went our separate ways....

So, I kind of deserted livejournal for a while.  Though I am never dishonest or even misleading in these entries, I put on these pages my life as I want other people to see it.  And because so ( Read more... )

 
She said, "You're a touch overrated ... but these grass stains on my knees, they won't mean a thing."  And all I need to know is that I'm something you'll be missing.

Eh. It was a day. I slept in, and it felt great. Then I did some stuff around the house, went to the pool, came back and talked with Aunt Patty ((which also felt great)) while I ( Read more... )

What if I stumble? What if I fall? Will the love still be there when the walk becomes a crawl?

Gosh... I have not written since before Justin came to Texas, which was quite a while ago.  I won't bother picking up where I left off, considering I do not even know where that was.  I'll just update on my day as if I never stopped updating at all:

Work ( Read more... )

Take this pink ribbon off my eyes.  I'm exposed, and it's no big surprise....

So I was scheduled to work 12-8 today, but it ended up being more like 12-10:30.  Gosh, it felt like such a long day.  Without my duet of I Will Survive with the lovely Ryan_Murphy, using silverware roll mics, I probably would have died.  Then there was the coleslaw ( Read more... )