What could suck enough to finally drive me to post...:-)

[justacat]

I cannot believe how long it's been since I've posted - I barely even remember how to do it. I have so many things I haven't written about - I'm still apologizing to my local crew for not telling them about my broken rib, which happened more than a month ago now! - and there's horse stuff: how Doha's adjusting, Bodie updates, and new fun stuff I'

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[reginagiraffe]

"I'm afraid we are going to have to stop this discussion, because all I'm getting from you are feelings of anger,"

GAAAAHHHHHHHHHHRRRGGGGHHHHHHHH!

How did you prevent yourself from punching her in the face!?

[justacat]

Yeah, exactly. Just about the only thing that saved her was the fact that we were talking by phone! *g* In better times my reaction to her crap has been an eyerolling "give me a break" (which I've tried to disguise for civility's sake); right now it's the desire to scream and throttle her (and I no longer feel much compulsion to be civil!!).

I don't know if she really believes that's a "therapeutic" approach; if so, whoever gave her a license should be fired.

[beledibabe]

Oh, honey, I'm sorry to hear about your broken rib, and that you're having to deal with all that stress and anxiety. I can't believe how inconsiderate and selfish these folks are -- especially in light of your support over the years. (I have a few 'therapeutic terms' I could fling around regarding their behavior. Bah.)

I'm sure you'll find a good place for the horses -- they're so fortunate to have you to care for them!

[justacat]

Well, my rib is about 80% healed now - that happened on Sept. 18 (which is why the folks I saw at last weekend's con comm meeting were peeved at me for not mentioning it!!). And truthfully, it could have been much worse - only a hairline fracture of my 10th rib, so painful but not excruciating or incapacitating (except no Pilates

[cmshaw]

oh, wow. that situation really, really sucks! i hope you can find something not merely good enough but a lot better. *crosses fingers for you and the horses*

[justacat]

Thank you... It'd be wonderful if, in the end, I look back and say - how great that we moved; this new situation is so much better, and I'm so relieved to be done with all that crap. From this vantage, though, it's hard to believe that that could happen; just too many ways that another situation could be worse than this one. But...I suppose you never know, and it's possible! By a month from now, I guess I'll know much more...can you keep everything crossed until then? *g*

[krisserci5]

Yuck! What horrid stuff to happen and then no real time to deal with it, particularly with colder and even more colder weather approaching.

Screaming aloud is allowed.

Oh and this :
"I'm afraid we are going to have to stop this discussion, because all I'm getting from you are feelings of anger,"

I realize that we can't actually hit people like that, but I do believe that I would have thrown sand and gravel in her face. She just didn't want you to make her feel guilty about being a dick head. And what a dickhead!!! (If you want me to come throw sand in her face, I will)

Sorry I'm so far away that I can't help you out, but you can rant at me any time. . .word or voice.

Hope the rib is feeling better.

[justacat]

The fact that winter is approaching makes this whole situation suck even more. For example, it's possible Carolyn could find a small farm just big enough for us and some of her other students (which is what, ideally, we would all want), but without an indoor arena, or without an adequate number of stalls, and then we could all finance building the arena, or another barn. But of course, with winter approaching we couldn't do that because we need an indoor arena and stalls right now, and there'd be absolutely no way to get stuff built within 30 days, especially not with the weather being iffy already.

And yes, you're exactly right - crap talk like that is just a way for people like her to avoid facing issues. She wants everything to be nice and neat; doesn't want to deal with the anger her own actions might arouse; doesn't want to be made to feel bad for her behavior that should make her feel that way. It's all, as I said, just passive-aggressive (like someone else we know, actually! *g*) - "but I was just trying to keep the

[kassrachel]

Oh, man, wow; I am so sorry that all of this is happening. What a nightmare! I am keeping you and your horses in my thoughts and I really, really hope you're able to make something work out.

[justacat]

Thank you so much for your thoughts! It is hard when you have these huge animals that have such specific, and kind of unwieldy, needs - not like my cats, which I can just pick up and move anywhere. There's a constant awareness of the weight of my responsibility for them; their dependence on me to do right by them; the obligations I've undertaken by taking on ownership of them. Not that I'd change it, but it means that situations like this one are so anxiety-provoking, even aside from the less-than-generous individuals involved!

Anyway - it does suck, and I hate it, but I know that eventually it will work out, one way or another. It's just getting from here to there that's the tough part! *g*