Ugh! When is this going to stop. It feels at times I becomes happy then all of a sudden BAM another bad thing. And its fucking annoying when all I hear is "Sarah are you ok?" every 5 seconds to the point of being nausea. Its crawls under my skin like liquid ice ( Read more... )

I  love it when music captures the essence of life. When you can just close your eyes and you are instantly telaported to another place....you can become another person....you can be surrounded by your minds limitless projections of a place the notes carry you. Motivated by a simple pound of the drums to keep pushing when your body has given up by ( Read more... )

Here I sit....looking the the window panes of where I wish to be. Once I step into the doorway of what should feel like home ends up being hell. Everyday it feels like my world caves in a bit more and the only thing that saves me in my love for something greater in life. There are days I wish for death then there are days I thank god I'm alive, but ( Read more... )

I have not been on this thing in awhile....it seems when all else fails (as far as social network) I come straight back to LJ. I guess it was or is a comfort thing. You can post witty status on fb, MySpace or Twitter...but there's nothing like spilling your heart and guts out on live journal....it actually theroputic. If you try posting something ( Read more... )

I dont even want to go to class right now. Some shit went down........like major. I can only imagine whats going through his head and he has every right to think something bad happened, but trust me nothing happened from the bottom of my deepest most clear heart. But i have to see it from his side and how bad it must look. Ugggggggh shit just when ( Read more... )

Ok well hi-de-ho!! I dont know if thats how you spell it but yea. Its one of those interesting day of sleepness....where you wish you had a bed and secretly wanting to hold you stuffed animal so you can fall back asleep for hours (O how I miss that right now). I'm here stuck at school once again...fuck I hate school during the summer. My body only ( Read more... )

Damn its been how long since I wrote in this journal? I stopped writting in this journal for the fact that I was starting to become happy with what my life was turning out to be. Humm lets see I have been happy, but something has changed and this sucks that I have write about it in my long lost journal, but it was the only place that I could think ( Read more... )

Ok so its to the point where I don't care about my mom anymore. I'm sick and fucking tired of being a good girl...never getting in trouble...so anti social....that i wish i could move and leave the bitch behind. Lets see how well she would do without me and deal with my brother herself with there one there to vent to. Because who at the end of the ( Read more... )

My day was going great nice, quiet, sweet. ya know everything except when you tell someone your gonna see them on there birthday you do it right?? I guess that person didn't care or think I was special enough to come see. He would have been my only present for my birthday just to see him. O well I guess nothing special can happen on your birthday ( Read more... )

Every have that one night that sets the rest of a relationship to the end? Where the other persons stops calling like they use to?? The "I will call you backs" and they do, but then THAT day comes and it never happens. Well I think that day is today....the ending of what I hoped was gonna be a great UNDERSTANDING relationship. Hes just to good of a ( Read more... )