well the last 2 days have been crazy ( Read more... )

well im doing a lot better then i was doing earlier today-except for the fact that im out of ciggarettes :( damnit ( Read more... )

well things are bad right now. as bad as theyve been in a long long time. ive been so down, ive been sleeping like 10hrs a night so i dont have to deal with things. i have no money-ive applied at like 20 places and no one has called back. i owe so many people money and they have been on my back ever since ive been home ( Read more... )

I am such a weirdo. Is that good to think that about yourself ( Read more... )

Don't you love how music gets inside you? cuts through you. Sitting in the dark, listening to one of your favorite songs...closing your eyes and inhaling every note, every lyric. That feeling you get. Like your totally free and alive. Feeling the chills run through your entire body, taking it all in. I swear its like the closest thing to an orgasm ( Read more... )

its 630am and i am still up. I attempted to go to sleep at around 4, but Jamie finnaly called, woke me up and begged me to go to dennys with her. It turns out jeff got a flat on the way back from tulsa so they were stuck for like 2hrs and she didnt get back to okc til 330 or so. poor baby ( Read more... )

another saturday night gone. i wish i was with Jamie tonight. she is in tulsa, went with jeff and his band-they had a show. she called at like 8 and told me she was going-i was sleeping. she said she was going to be home by midnight and was going to call me, but she never called. i paged her and shes yet to call back. i really wish i would of went ( Read more... )

ive been sleeping so much and i don't know why. I got like 9hrs last night and then i fell asleep again today from like 2pm to 6pm...which is kind of scary bc i never do that. maybe its bc ive been thinking a lot about a lot of things and ive been really really stressed about money and stuff. maybe my body is just drained. Ive been having headaches ( Read more... )

well last night didnt turn out how i expected it to. me and jamie had plans to go watch the fireworks at the park, but she called me up and hour before we were suppose to go and told me she couldnt go bc her grandma didnt feel up to it. so her and the fam were just gonna stay home. i was kind of upset, i wanted to spend the night with her, but oh ( Read more... )

i have an interview at AOL in 30 mins. I hope they dont mind my new hair, its a little more out there then even the blue was but hopefully they wont mind. Im gonna wear a bandana anyway ( Read more... )