what is it about the future that I hate thinking about it?! is it going to college?.... no no I'm excited about that. is it the moving away?.... maybe a bit but only a bit. I think it might be the growing up part. I don't know what it is about growing up I don't like but I seriously don't like it one bit.... but I'm definetly ready to be done with ( Read more... )

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I don't remember what I used to write about in this or why I even started this diary... maybe I started it because everyone else did it or maybe because in some weird way I wanted everyone to know how I felt but I didn't just want to come out an say it, or maybe because I wanted to know what everyone else was thinking without having to ask them ( Read more... )

ooo man I've been gone so long... but I'm finally home again. SEMP was good. I'm glad I went. The Lord moved in us that week. There are way to many things I could say about our week. I'll just tell ya that it was a good week and that God was the focus!!! YAY 4 JESUS!

ok so I do know when I'll be back but its ok. I leave saturday for SEMP (Students Equiped to Minister to their Peers)... I'm so excited/nervous/scared/happy. haha. God is going to do big things in our youth group. I can just see it happening. SEMP is going to be a big step in my walk with Jesus and I'm so excited to get closer to God. He's all I ( Read more... )

I'm not one that is too fond of change but this past two weeks my whole life has changed. I know things are changing for the best because before was just all wrong but its sad. I've been really upset about it for the past few days and I'm tired of being upset. I'm tired of knowing my tears won't change a thing but I keep crying anyway. being hurt ( Read more... )

I sometimes think that being 10 again would be nice. a friend of mine who is 10 showed me today something I long for. worrying about things is so pointless. just go with the flow.... I mean have structure in your life but not everything is a big deal. I learned a huge lesson today and I learned it from a 10 year old. children are remarkable ( Read more... )

I haven't posted in a while..... lately nothing has just moved me to write anything here. I feel like all I do in this journal is talk about my day or just stupid stuff and I'm done with that. I'm hurting tonight. for many reasons. the reasons aren't important. the reasons just get in the way. I keep hearing in my head.... "now is the time" and I ( Read more... )

a girl that went to my school died on tuesday. it was a car accident on rio grande. its so unbelieveable. life is so short. Praise God I don't have to worry about death. Because I couldn't imagine not knowing where I'm going when I die.....

I think I may actually be growing up. not in age but in the way I have been lately. in my thoughts and in everything I'm doing...... I'm glad I'm growing up things that I used to be fond of are now in the past and I have new things to look forward to!