I am soooo confused about everything. I don't know what to think anymore. Dan had been texting me a lot more recently, and they were just really cute texts and they sounded a lot like he misses me but I knew that it was only in a friendship kind of way. I mean he even texted me "do you like apples?" because he didn't really have anything to say but ( Read more... )

"Jalbert" (1:30:33 AM): I love ya Tanya (in the friendly, Jesus loves everyone way) but you need to sit down and think about if this is how you want to live your life. If it is, fine, I'm just sayin ( Read more... )

I've been really sick for the past 5 days. I've had a 104 fever and basically been a vegetable. Today was the first time my fever broke. And I could stand to something other than just lay there like a useless pile of nothing ( Read more... )

Dan came over friday night for the weekend. We were supposed to go to mountain creek and then to troy on saturday but the weather made a water park visit a little unrealistic. It was the first time we talked in person since the break up so I was a little nervous but it was still so easy to just be myself around him. Problem was, it still felt like ( Read more... )

The inevitable happened. We finally broke up. I'm really not quite sure how I feel about it, because my thoughts change moment to moment. I'm reacting better than usual though, I've barely cried, and boy am I a crier. I think I realized that the beginning was so good because it was nice to have someone to like that liked you back, and then I guess ( Read more... )

I want to be hopelessly ridiculously in love. I want a fairytale story. I want to get lost in someone. I want to be giddy, get butterflies in my stomach every time I see him. I'm afraid I'm too old for that. I've seen too many things go wrong for that too happen. I doubt everything. I've gone from a hopeless romantic to a major skeptic ( Read more... )

Cheating really annoys me. I really just can't fathom how it happens as often as it does. I know of at least four couples together at this moment where one person has been unfaithful numerous times. Their significant others don't know any better, but honestly, how should they? Their boy/girlfriend are just the 'sweetest' and how could they possibly ( Read more... )

I'm in mass now.. dans asleep, but i was too restless so I got up and am reading Angels & Demons... it's good so far. He's mad at me now, and for good reason.
I know this may sound stupid.. but my heart hurts. Today might be it.

So working out is nice. I like working out. Everything just gets better for a while. And so tomorrow I'm going to go to the gym before work, pack after work, and then see anat. Saturday I'm off to troy maybe, but ultimately Massachusetts to visit Dan and go to Six Flags. I've given up on the whole him talking to me a lot through texts thing... It's ( Read more... )

Okay... so my last entry, I never finished writing it because I got distracted, but I talked to dan last night, for like 2 hours. We talked a lot of things out and we both said a lot of truthful things that were hard to hear, and I really thought it was going to be over, but then he just said how much he likes me and that he really wants to make ( Read more... )