so. in the dad department, it's going as good as it's going to get. i went shopping with my dad and tara and it wasn't too bad. it's the thought that counts for presents so i was happy with the thought that was put into everything. i guess i had an ok christmas. i feel differant with my dad's side of the family now though ( Read more... )

is it ok for me to give up and give in?

i don't know.

yep.

i feel weird.
out of place. out of body. out of my mind. whatever...i just don't feel right.
i hate this feeling.
like nothing fits.
i shouldn't feel this way either. i have no reason to.

I realized today, about an hour ago, that i am the biggest hopeless romantic ( Read more... )

holy shit. im so sick of everything.
especially the fucking drama.
it is attracted to this house.

maybe tuesday will help me.

i think they found john by the way. or so i hear.

i feel like shit for just about everything ( Read more... )

Top 3 reasons why my life is over:

1. I got cought selling celebrity portrais in school
2. I just saved the president of the united states from an assassination attempt
3. I was just appointed teen ambassador to the UN

I love grey's anatomy.

but yeah i need to get over the tiny things.
I'm sure they will always bug me and theres nothing i can do.
so my plan. Just get over it. all i know is that this weekend is very much needed.

and the party was kickin'. and im glad people actually came. thanks.

so tired

night

ok. I dont think i can take one more day of this. I wish i didn't live with phillip. i mean i love my mom so freakin' much and to sit aside and watch the way phil treats her... and everyone... it makes me sick. I actually care about her. I want to be nice. i understand her. and then to think that she sides with him. and then im the one whose the ( Read more... )

so exhausted ( Read more... )