ahh today was the first day of swimming at loch raven it makes me happy summers coming fer sure.

ahh this thing, i havent updated in quite some time, does anyone still even use this thing? probably not.slowly very slowly getting my shit together, drivers test is wendsday, i got a car, i have a new obsession with lost , todd and becka moved in to my folks house. shits ok. and winter is almost over. finally. heading out to the nerve center now ( Read more... )

well its been a good 5 weeks or so since i updated this thing...lets see i finally started drivers ed this week, im 12 hours into it and its soooo boring but i guess that was to be expected another four classes next week then im done and just need to do my drive times and December 2nd i can take my drivers test sweet ^.^!! other than that...nothing ( Read more... )

ever feel like everything good is just a dream even though you know those friends are there and your smile exists? i do. and i have been. i hate it, i really wanna drink right now. im at my parents house. i hate it. im going out tonight, and im gonna once again try to understand this feeling once my brain is drowned in liquer. bad things are about ( Read more... )

well lets start off in all honesty, i have a lump in my throat and i feel like shit, my bodys tense and my brain feels claustrophobic in my head which in turn feels claustrophobic in this house, it feels numb and dark between these walls and i feel hopelessely and utterly trapped, abandoned, and every other horrid feeling you could roll from your ( Read more... )

so this house is really gettin to me its the first time ive understood the full impact of how much it sux bein here alone and its brutal, the depression is overwhelming. i cant stand it. i guess im gonna move out, i know its not the best idea but it needs to be done...now. so i need to find a place in like the next week or so. im gonna try'n get ( Read more... )

sooo, me and dave broke up. thats kinda stating the inevitable though... its a pretty big relief that i wont have to deal with his drinking anymore, i just hope he doesnt go wreck his life, cause he says hes not gonna stay in baltimore which doesnt make any sense...anyhow, i dont really no what to say about it all, it happened very quick, after hed ( Read more... )

last friday i decided it was a briliant idea to sled down my ice crusted hill in the dark, i hit a stump with my ankle and broke it in two places as well as spraining it pete and jack carried me up the hill and then i had to spend an unapatizing 5 hours in the hospital with dave and my folks, the docter said if i had even put 10 more pounds of ( Read more... )

everyone needs to start partying again, like everyday, lets start with a bonfire and a box of wine.

this weekends been kinda lame, thursday me and dave went to york to see the flash attcks play and hang out with tom, it was fun drank some whiskey and beer with them then we got a hotel, but then i started to get sick and the whole next morning i was throwing up constantly and almost fainted walking around in towson, went home for a brief bit then ( Read more... )