i know no one reads this, but here is an update anyway.

bi-polar II.
wellbutrine, celexa, abilify, ambian
finishing last 9 credits of college, finally.
married since june 22, 2008
now i dont want to be married anymore
everything looks good but i hate life and want out.

i would like to take the time to tell you about me ( Read more... )

my parents got a new little dog, which i fine, but in exchange i have to find a new home for my cat...

Ophelia is about 6 months old, gray Singapura cat.
she loves to play and is very energetic. she also loves to cuddle and be around people. she has had her first round of shots, been front declawed, spayed, and litter box trained.


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its 4am, i just got home, went to a friends place, had 6 beers. i'm a fool. he wouldnt let me drive home... then when he finally did, i realized i shouldnt be driving, and i sat by my car for a long while, then drove home, completely intoxicated. he was so nice and caring, and i was a fool. i denied so many things. and i still do. i am home, ( Read more... )

i just got a kitten!

i'm still not completely sure what my parents think, i just know they wouldnt get too down on me cause of my general mood and stuff....

now i have to come up with a name!

pics to follow

i gave in today ( Read more... )

so many choices ( Read more... )

since i have last posted many things have gone down in my life. some things have changed others have not. there has been a lot of hurt. i'm sure i have said hurtful things to many people. but many people have also said very hurtful things to me. i was accused of many things. i trust people to much. i rely on other for to many things. i was ( Read more... )

i was away for a week on a retreat... a sort of pilgramage..... intentional christian community... it wasnt any great spiritual experience, just another moment away. i get so sick of manufactured spiritual experiences, which was not what this was suppose to be, and i dont think it was, i'm just a bit cynical and skeptical.... which can make things ( Read more... )

i went to meijer, got my 3 prescriptions filled ( Read more... )