lately things have been shitty. i have the biggest feeling that people are avoiding me and i dont know why. is it something ive done? i really hate bein blown off and ignored and people talking shit behind my back. i never did ne thing to ne one. i guess i need new friends that dont blow me off. i am so sick of it. i dont want to spend my weekend ( Read more... )

ive been a lil down lately. i found out that one of my friends from middle school probably has cancer and then the same day i found out that my potential fathers name is john and he used to live next door to my aunt which is where i am right now and that he does in fact have two kids. then the other day found out that april is in the hospital but ( Read more... )

hey everyone im back. lately ive been kind of depressed about a lot of stuff. i have had a lot of things on my mind lately. theres a lot of stuff going on with my friends. now i am seriously considering moving out of state once i graduate next year in the middle of the year. i know moving outta state wont help and all of my problems will follow but ( Read more... )

well ppl im back...things are gettin crazy..my aunt is seriously driving me beyond my breakin point but w/e i dont care ill try to live with it but if u find a box in ur backyard thats probably me campin out school is ok tho im on break now dont have ne big plans till next weekend but oh well its all good yo! im still hopin to go to prom...i went ( Read more... )

hey everyone just makin a quick update of my journal. school sucks ass and i dont know what else to do....im about to go crazy. ummm.....yeah....went bowling for the very first time and i did ok my first game. i got a 102 or a 109 i dont remember and then it all went down hill from there. i dont think dave hittin me in the face helped but oh well ( Read more... )

this is for all of u people who told my issue to...im getting over that person i was in love with. i will always love this person no matter wat i just came to realize that nothing would happen. i made myself realize it on my own a while ago so yeah thats all i wanna say so peace

well nothing new goin on here. takin exams in school..god do they blow my toe just playin...ne who...yea nothing new goin on with me really. i really need to move outta my aunts house tho. i cant take this anymore. my aunt has seriously drove me crazy. i dont know what i am going to do. i gotta getta job and start savin up for my junior prom..yea ( Read more... )

its me again...im still sick unfortunately but its all good. i am hanging out with my friend heather today too and i am goin home tomorrow. i will probably hang wit dave or something...i hate sitting at home but o well shit happens. i have to find a job and move out because livin with my aunt is really driving me nutzo!! friggin grr its nuts man im ( Read more... )

right now i am at my friends heathers. im gettin sick too...ugh! oh well i will manage...that feeling that i have about the person is diminishing because i now realized that it will never happen but hey what can i do? it doesnt matter ne more. im hoping to have a good weekend. the vp at school is dyin his hair hot pink, the principal is gettin a ( Read more... )

shit is nuts...still got that one person on my mind...im suspecting something is not right though...im really scared. i have to do something soon. the other night when i heard a particular song i cried myself to sleep wondering what to do. but if i dont do ne thing soon i will seriously lose my mind and my self control.but hey school is nothing new ( Read more... )