I get so frustrated with myself sometimes. Why can't I just be happy with the way things are, knowing I'm lucky to have the friends & family I have? I keep hoping for something else.. someone else... and it's stupid and pointless. I wish I could banish thoughts from my head sometimes. Don't worry, be happy.

harry potter fans: what form do you think your patronus would take?!

mine, i'm pretty sure, would be a kitty. although it would be cool to have something a little more unusual.

on second thought, maybe mine would be a robin. hehe.

I realize I've been very horrible about updating, but it's only because absolutely nothing worth talking about has happened to me. :-) I still like my job at the vet's, still trying to figure out what I'm doing after college, still single, and still enjoying having a kitty even though she is crazy. I'm also still bored a lot.. so here's a survey ( Read more... )

Semester is over, but it doesn't feel like summer because I'm basically working full time this week, and then some more because I'm working on Saturday. I still feel like a deer in headlights at work sometimes. I don't know if I'm just really slow, or if it's normal to be completely lost at a vet's office when you have no experience. Bleh. I'll ( Read more... )

normally when a guy expresses no interest in even wanting to see you, you GIVE UP right?!? why can't i just give up and say this is stupid, nothing's going to change, why do i still believe i have a chance when there's no indication that i do. i hate this. i'm sick of wishing i could find someone, i'm sick of being alone, i'm sick of not knowing ( Read more... )

i got a job i got a job i got a job!!!!!!!!!!!! :-D one of my professors knew that i was looking for a job at a vet's office, and he told me about a veterinarian that needed some help, so i gave them my resume, and they just called me! so YAY!!!!! i start tomorrow, i'm so excited! FINALLY!

i want someone to look at me the way mr. darcy looks at elizabeth.
really, is that too much to ask?

well i'm nice and sick now, no doubt thanks to those hours spent in the freezing rain last week. oh yay band. :-P ( Read more... )

so today was a long day. the marching band had to go play at the senior bowl in mobile, and we left at 6am this morning. right about the time we entered the stadium and got into our seats it started to rain. not pouring, but still a steady rain. and it NEVER STOPPED. and it got progressively colder. and one of the pads in my piccolo fell out ( Read more... )

today was one of those days where gradually everything went wrong, and the day just got worse and worse, until it all climaxed in an emotional breakdown that really had nothing to do with the day's events ( Read more... )