Shit, someone got me sick. I've been asleep for like a day now only getting out of bed once in a while to eat and get on my computer for a few minutes. It's actually kinda neat, I love sleep. My dreams never cease to amaze me. The shit I dream about is absolutely nutty, and not like peanut butter, more like the professor, or something like that ( Read more... )

Hi LJ people, i haven't posted in months. Looking back on my last few posts I wonder what the hell was wrong with me. I was handling everything about as well as a 14 year old girl. Things have been going a lot better recently. More opportunities are popping up everywhere and poker has been a bit better. I've been working in Beaverton for the last ( Read more... )

I ask myself, is it worth it? The answer before was always yes. Its become difficult to answer the question at all now. Whenever I have troubles or concerns I drown them with alcohol, morphine, oxycontin, or something of that sort. The last 2 weeks have been a shocking wake up call. My grandpa is having health problems and there is something else ( Read more... )

so...i have no idea what to do. i'm fucked sideways, lubeless, double penetration style or something. i have so many problems right now i can't even sleep because they are all thats on my mind.

my performance thus far has been subpar. im sorry its come down to this but it has to happen if i'm to get anywhere.

my shadows only one that walks beside me, i walk alone :(

I really hope I don't make the mistake of my life simply because I think it would be better to sit at a computer than actually do work. I think i'm going to just prevent myself from doing it, or go both ways. I am now forced to decide which way I want to go as I fill out my papers for college. I have my application in for financial aid. Now I'm ( Read more... )

I overreacted at first, i am now fine! maybe even better than fine. 4 years, 4 YEARS! its finally happening. good god, i can barely contain myself even though its still a couple months away lol. im a dork ( Read more... )

sara always makes me feel better! shes coming up here! this will be the best thing ever in life!

the past 24 hours of my life have been the most frustrating emotional roller coaster ive ever experienced. i feel at this point so cold, hurt, and worthless. i feel angry, frustrated, and confused. my life has been a series of friendships that grow into something more. i get emotionally attached and then suddenly its over. every time its like a ( Read more... )

I sit here wondering, "will this be the death of me". I've never felt pain like this before. if i continue to live this lifestyle what will become of me? i've been near the edge so many times i can't count them. to some extent, i want to push it further. i want to test myself. death would be an escape. its not that the pain is horrible and i can't ( Read more... )