dear lj

i still think about tashia and dream about her from time to time, but im doing better now.me and cyndi are doing ok.i dont really have a whole lot to say thats new except i got a job now im working construction again.my body hurts every day but all well its money.later lj.

You got to leave me now, you got to go alone ( Read more... )

its been awhile since ive talked to tashia.i seen her today at the gas station but i just turned away really quick.im doing alot better now.just like when you get use to being with someone, you can get use to being without someone.i miss her still like crazy.but she just wasnt the person i thought she was.im always going to love her and her kids. ( Read more... )

its been a couple since ive last been on here but it feels like a lifetime.I miss tashia alot still.Her brothers just left here and i was happy to see them.I have been trying to move on past her now though.Ive been letting cyndi come around alot now and i might give her another try.i know its failure just waiting but its worth one more i guess.i ( Read more... )

i dont really know what im doing anymore.Right now im just going day by day.Things are getting easier.i just wish things didnt happen the way they did.Still the same.tonight im going to relax and try to write another song.maybe this one will be pretty good.I need to get a karoake machine.i want to hear what i sound like.i hope good.i want a rock ( Read more... )

What a day ( Read more... )

I feel so weird now ( Read more... )

I miss her.She doesnt talk to me anymore and i cant blame her.Still the same i love her and im not going to stop.I know its love because we havent had sex in i dont know how long and i still want her.i know i fucked up big with her,and ill probably never get a chance to change shit.but im not gonna stop hoping shes the woman i marry.I worry about ( Read more... )

my life is such hell ( Read more... )

Day 9 i think ( Read more... )