Adam, my mom's husband, wants to help us keep the TO apartment. Brian hasn't gotten back to me yet, and I realize he may not be thrilled, but I think it's great!
I may not have lived through these kinds of times before in terms of a global crumbling economy, but I've been without any means of support. It was really scary. I tried peddling my ass, I was so desperate. Brian helped me realize then that I needed help, and I finally accepted it, way later than I should have.
I know you've known hard times and fought desperately for what you want--your studies, your art. Brian knows and respects it too. I'm sure that's why he kept his mouth shut as much as he did (at first) over your working for the Sap.
Wow, that's taking out the ammunition with a man knowing when to ask for help.
I truly hope between the two of you that you work it out. But I simply can't see Brian been at ease about this. He loves you and this your 'family business' and now you are bringing in a relative stranger into it because he can't keep the apartment.
Nice things like this don't happen every day. They almost NEVER happen. Why can't it be easy?
Brian hasn't replied to me. He could just be busy, but maybe he's pissed. I really don't want him to be pissed, but I also really want to keep the apartment.
I agree it would appear to be a terrific solution, but somehow I don't think Brian will appreciate the gesture. He hates it when you try to share in normal household expenses, do you really think he'll accept a loan from your stepfather?
Brian Kinney...Damsel in Distress?? I don't think so!!
Justin, I hope we're all wrong about Brian's reaction to this offer. I'd love to be proven wrong here because obviously keeping this apartment is really important to you for reasons you're not sharing with us (or Brian)
Maybe he'll just get mad at all of us for upsetting you and take the loan to spite us!!
Hi Justin, it's been awhile, but life has been crazy.
I just caught up with your posts here and in the community. TBH, I'm really surprised that you'd think Brian might go for this, you know Brian isn't one to take handouts To say that Adam's business is booming (while Kinnetik's isn't) and think Brian might not find that emasculating, a blow to that part of him that takes pride in being able to support the people in his life, well frankly I'm just shocked that you'd suggest this. I get that losing the apt. sucks and you don't want to do it, but these sorts of things are happening to all of us, ya know?
I don't mean to come across harshly, but maybe I'm feeling a little protective of Brian at the moment, because he's trying to do what he can to stay afloat.
I guess Brian's reaction is quite predictable, we'll see. I understand where you are coming from, but I also might have issues, pride but even more the feeling of being indepted to a virtual stranger. For Brian Adam might fall into this category.
Just be prepared!
Hugs you tightly! Nicki
I should have read Brian's comments over at the com before
I know you're crushed and this offer must seem like the ideal solution to your problem from your perspective.
This is not about Adam or anybody, it's Brian's make-up. He would never ever accept that. I think it really costs him that he had to tell you the apartment has to go. He is used to be in a position to give you anything he knows, senses or assumes you desire without a second thought. He can't even except a thank you, as it is obviously hard for him to put anyone in a position that requires that. It might be all backwards and like walking through a minefield, but I really think he can hardly bear being thanked or being indebted to anyone.
I also know that you are crying inside and that hurts me too. I am with both of you on this one, which also doesn't make sense, but it's honest.
I'm so mixed up with my feelings right now. On the one hand I'm really angry at Brian for being so difficult. And then on the other, I know it's not even about the apartment any more.
I spoke to my mom. She says Adam wishes he'd just purchased a shitload of my paintings. But I couldn't have kept that from Brian. I mean, I wouldn't have done that, so in the end I guess it's all the same.
I'm going home. The walk didn't do the trick and I'm feeling low. I have a headache too.
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I may not have lived through these kinds of times before in terms of a global crumbling economy, but I've been without any means of support. It was really scary. I tried peddling my ass, I was so desperate. Brian helped me realize then that I needed help, and I finally accepted it, way later than I should have.
I know you've known hard times and fought desperately for what you want--your studies, your art. Brian knows and respects it too. I'm sure that's why he kept his mouth shut as much as he did (at first) over your working for the Sap.
Wow, that's taking out the ammunition with a man knowing when to ask for help.
I truly hope between the two of you that you work it out. But I simply can't see Brian been at ease about this. He loves you and this your 'family business' and now you are bringing in a relative stranger into it because he can't keep the apartment.
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Brian hasn't replied to me. He could just be busy, but maybe he's pissed. I really don't want him to be pissed, but I also really want to keep the apartment.
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But when you say 'why can't it be easy' you are not talking about living with Brian or the current shitty situation.
Maybe he's thinking about what you posted, I don't know. But he'll be pissed if you get upset (at us). No one but he is allowed to do that, remember.
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Brian Kinney...Damsel in Distress?? I don't think so!!
Brace yourself Justin!
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Maybe he'll just get mad at all of us for upsetting you and take the loan to spite us!!
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Brian hasn't smoked in so long your icon caught me by surprise. How the fuck you all get these photos, it's beyond me. Scary really.
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I just caught up with your posts here and in the community. TBH, I'm really surprised that you'd think Brian might go for this, you know Brian isn't one to take handouts To say that Adam's business is booming (while Kinnetik's isn't) and think Brian might not find that emasculating, a blow to that part of him that takes pride in being able to support the people in his life, well frankly I'm just shocked that you'd suggest this. I get that losing the apt. sucks and you don't want to do it, but these sorts of things are happening to all of us, ya know?
I don't mean to come across harshly, but maybe I'm feeling a little protective of Brian at the moment, because he's trying to do what he can to stay afloat.
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It's not the sucking so much as the unwillingness to suck it up, I'm thinking.
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I haven't heard from you in ages. Too bad you didn't bring me better news.
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Sorry, but I call em like I see em. I keep hitting refresh to see how bad Brian yells at you...LOL! Don't worry, he can't stay mad at you forever.
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Just be prepared!
Hugs you tightly!
Nicki
I should have read Brian's comments over at the com before
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This is not about Adam or anybody, it's Brian's make-up.
He would never ever accept that. I think it really costs him that he had to tell you the apartment has to go.
He is used to be in a position to give you anything he knows, senses or assumes you desire without a second thought.
He can't even except a thank you, as it is obviously hard for him to put anyone in a position that requires that. It might be all backwards and like walking through a minefield, but I really think he can hardly bear being thanked or being indebted to anyone.
I also know that you are crying inside and that hurts me too. I am with both of you on this one, which also doesn't make sense, but it's honest.
I'm really sorry, Justin!
Nicki
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I spoke to my mom. She says Adam wishes he'd just purchased a shitload of my paintings. But I couldn't have kept that from Brian. I mean, I wouldn't have done that, so in the end I guess it's all the same.
I'm going home. The walk didn't do the trick and I'm feeling low. I have a headache too.
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