I'm disappearing fast. My heart hurts constantly, yearning for her. I'm paralyzed with fear and aching for my one true love back ( Read more... )

i miss her.why can't I stop thinking of her? wanting her? missing her? any desire makes me think of her. no one is as beautiful or desirable as she was. I'll always be alone but even if I could change that would I want to if it isn't her? the answer is no because I can't get over her. I don't know how.I gave half of myself away and I can't get it ( Read more... )

I think a lot about trying to get back with Nicole but that would be financially and emotionally disabling to her. edit: I meant to write "to her". I should have wrote to her. She just got a new job and seems to want to be a flight attendant which I think would be perfect for her but she would give almost anything up to be closer to someone she ( Read more... )

I get absolutely nothing accomplished. Everyday I say this will be the day I will do something to be proud of and everyday the day ends and I can't stay awake any longer and fall asleep saying tomorrow will be the day I will accomplish something ( Read more... )

I was in the Break room at work and the news on the tv was about the singer Rhiana and how her boyfriend beat her up. It showed a picture of her face that was shocking in it's severity. Being that Rhiana is so attractive and so successful in what she does it's hard to believe she would be with someone who would do that to her. A girl came into the ( Read more... )

I applied to Sheridan College and was turned down. At least my portfolio was good enough to be excepted, at least that's what their letter with the review sheet said, but I wasn't excepted. They didn't tell me why but I'm guessing my past school history factored in or they had people they would rather have in that program. I was offered an ( Read more... )

I've given up soda and it's killing me. I'm really really craving it. It doesn't help that it is in the fridge. calling out to me. 2 bottles in fact. My sister and her fiance came over and then downed a litre bottle each. It also doesn't help that at work I get free pop and there isn't really anything else free but water. I drink soda water when ( Read more... )

When I took time off work it wasn't a lot of time. You would think it was by the # of questions I got when I had to tell people... like I needed a good reason otherwise I shouldn't be taking time off. It was only 6 days of which a Friday and a Saturday were each one of those days. ' It took all of one day before I hated it again. Now I'm back to ( Read more... )

I don't think I can do this.

any of this.

So I get to work, barely into the shift, and teenager whom I work with asks, "Aubrey do you do drugs?" and of course "WHY NOT MAN ( Read more... )