so, coney island was amazing ( Read more... )

i know everyone says that i only write in here when things suck
and i apologize for that, 
but i don't find a need to write about happy things.
things like that are held very dear to me
because they are few and far between themselves
and i would like to cherish and keep them tucked down deep for as long as possible.

once again my hopes have been ( Read more... )

 i'm on the verge of tears again ( Read more... )

i'm faking it.
and apparently i'm good.
because no one can tell.

i miss my friends
it really flipping sucks
really
i've never missed people this much in my life. 

"At some point in the night, I remembered the promise I'd made to myself early this morning -- that I would never make him see me shed another tear for you know who... Instinctively, I knew that the new tear in my heart would always ache. This was just going to be a part of me now. Time would make it easier -- that's what everyone always said... ' ( Read more... )

 i jus finished New Moon for the third time.
can i jus ask everyone why REAL life can't be like that?
god.

why is that we still love people who have hurt us
and obviously don't give two shits about us?
i wish i could punch him.
i wish he could feel the way he has torn my heart in two
because he never cared.
he never could have if he turned his back on me this easily.
i remember this one time he said
"I love you, and I know you won't say it back to me yet, but ( Read more... )

i don't feel like myself much lately. i actually haven't in a while. this past year was horrendous, and jus as things were getting better, i up and ruined my relationship with my boyfriend, and one of the only friends i've felt that really cared about me in a long time. i feel like things aren't the same anymore and that they probably never will be ( Read more... )

 so, it has come to the moment in time when i've hit rock bottom.
where everything that once saved me, has ended.
i start classes at a new school today.
the things that i grew up with, that kept me alive, are gone now. (i.e: Rent, The Early November, The OC, Harry Potter, Gilmore Girls, etc.)
this may sound lame to a lot of people
but whatever.

i guess i ( Read more... )