i think i've realized for the first time ever ( Read more... )

if you were me
than you'd be
screaming
someone shoot me.

no joke. i wish someone would.

I think there's one thing I've finally realized about myself:
No one knows anything about me.
Or rather, no one knows everything about me.
I am unable to share what is really going on.
I'm unable to tell people why I'm upset
or that I am even upset.
I think I have too much of a maternal instinct.
I need to take care of people,
maybe so I don't have to take ( Read more... )

I don't even know what to write here ( Read more... )

 tomorrow will officially be my last eventful day of summer.
after that, for the next two weeks, i will be working my ass off to save money for books and other nonsense.
so let's hope this concert lives up to the final bash of my summer days.
i doubt it will.
and this sucks.
where the hell did my summer go?

"what do i look like? the wizard of oz?
you need a brain? you need a heart?
go ahead. take mine. take everything
i have."

where is my edward cullen? 

 a question for those of you who actually pay attention to this ( Read more... )

i can't sleep.
this sucks.
i don't know what it is that keeps my mind running when it shouldn't.
i'm becoming severely depressed over things that i know will change in time
but i jus wish that they would change now.
i woke up this morning,
and started thinking.
not prompted by dreams
or anything else that i know of
but thought of how much my brother and ( Read more... )

"Time Passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even
when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of
blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange 
lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me."

i may seem terribly co-dependent at this moment in time,
but i'm feeling lonely.
and going a little crazy jus knowing that i can't wake up and call him.
and i am missing my friends too much.
it was so normal, so fucking wonderful, to be with them and feel like i belong.
they are the best friends i could have ever asked for.
i love you guys.