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I remember now why I hate birthdays. They're a let down, regardless of what you did or did not expect. I don't expect a whole lot anymore, so it shouldn't be that hard to impress me right? I get to school, expecting nothing, to be surprised with lots of things. My kids are amazing! I coast through the  morning, happily, til lunch, when I have to ( Read more... )

Why? How is it that I can take a perfectly lovely thing and destroy it? What is it in me that screams to not be alone? Why can't I just have friends and relax and jsut trust that someday, someone, somewhere might just really like me, without me having to wear my heart on my sleeve or bat my eyes or flirt like a maniac?

This hand is bitterness
We ( Read more... )

 
She brought them to help her get over her fears. A huge boquet of brightly colored balloons.

It was the popping that made her nervous, not just looking at them. The sudden loud bursting sound that would make her shudder.  Some sort of holdover from a childhood party gone bad. She brought them to help her get over her fears, but my oh-so-nervous ( Read more... )

He made a choice. I responded. He responded to the choice I made. I made another choice, and it was completely over. So why am I not even sad? Why does it feel like freedom? Why do I feel empowered when I should be sad? 
Because I'm not under his thumb anymore. Not stuck. Not alone. Not scared. Not beat down and broken. He never laid a hand on me, ( Read more... )

As memory may be a paradise from which we cannot be driven, it may also be a hell from which we cannot escape.

Sometimes just drifting back to simpler childhood things can make you feel better. 
Today was one of the worst days of my life.
It all came crashing down around me this morning. A letter. A change forever. Thank God it wasn't worse. 
I was ( Read more... )

Work is stunningly amazing. I'm more in awe of my kids every single day. I seriously had forgotten how much a kid has to deal with, between friends, school, family, and just trying to grow up, and I'm amazed at how well my students do it every single day. 
I was so stressed about having an enormous class, but I've come to love the chaos. There's ( Read more... )

So, its been almost a month. Each day, my heart hurts a little less, and becomes a bit more whole. Each day, what his voice fades a little more til its just a dull ringing in my ears. Its not so easy to remember what it felt like when he held me, what his kisses were like, or even the exact shade of blue his eyes were.  Even the details of our " ( Read more... )

The   Psychology   of   Men   According   to   Oprah...

"If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you,
nothing can make him stay." Stop making excuses for a man and his
behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to
be. Slower is ( Read more... )