Comments | justloveme1205: when it all comes to an end.

justloveme1205

when it all comes to an end.

Apr 11, 2007 11:03

my car is packed. my eyes are full of tears.. telling you goodbye hurts so much. I love you please know thats true. I just feel like this is whats best. I don't want to continue on and end up hating eachother. I've always loved you and I wish it wasn't like this. but, I have to be happy and you really need to find what makes you happy. being home ( Read more... )

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Knowing when it's over loveubetter April 11 2007, 15:20:59 UTC

So, I changed my dentist appt. I'm still on lunch and knowing you I knew you would take the time to write something on here... Here I be too! It does hurt to see you go or knowing your going to be gone when I get home from work this evening. I know you love me and that was never a question. I love you, but my tears are going to have to wait till I get home... I am doing everything I can to not tear, I would if I was anywhere else but here at work. I don't know if you are coming to see me one last time before you head home. And I would understand if you didn't. I just wish I knew this morning that you were leaving. I would have kissed you a liltle different and said I love you with heart. I'm sorry. Lastnight made me mad. I got a liltle passive aggressive when I shouldn't have. My fault for being a jerk. I never meant to hurt you or put you through everything I did. I want you to know that you did nothing wrong... I am just readly in so many ways and for so many reasons. I shouldn't have heald on as long as I did. I ( ... )

Re: Knowing when it's over justloveme1205 April 12 2007, 04:21:30 UTC

I made it safely 10.5 hrs not too bad. I'm still really numb and nothing has hit me yet, i still have a lot of why's and what not. just know that I do love you. and i hope you sleep tight with MY pillow..
I love you sweetheart
steph

Re: Knowing when it's over loveubetter April 12 2007, 13:30:08 UTC

I am glad you made it safely. Sucks that it took 10.5 hours. Did you stop much? I figured it would take you a min of 8.5 hours. Was thinking about you all day. I came home and just looked around. It's very empty with out you. A few things here and there but not much. And then I saw your pillow... made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside! Thanks, I am glad you left the pillow, makes me smile every time I see it. I got cold last night. Made me sad that I was the only one in my bed. I went to cuddle you, to steal your warmth, and I remembered you weren't there... GRR! It's really weird with out you. You've been gone before, weeks at a time, but this time it feels different it's very different. I feel like eeyore, just mopping around not sure what to do with myself besides sleep :-) nah! I do miss you! I hope we can still talk and what not... I hope you have a wonderful day, babes!

Love,
Amber

Re: Knowing when it's over justloveme1205 April 12 2007, 15:05:26 UTC

I understand completely. Last night was very different for me as well. and I find people are not used to my mannerisms etc. like my friend asked me to do something and i said atada! and i got this look haha.. and just stuff like that.. you are a part of me, we were together for eight months. I look at it like this. I unlike the majority of most men , can not simply flip the light switch of love off. and I definitely still love you, and maybe this is just a break? Maybe we need this to build communication between us etc, to be honest i'm kinda excited to see where this will lead. Maybe we need this to gain a better understanding of eachother? I really have not closed any doors in my heart nor do I intend to, Nights just feel so weird without your presence its kinda hard to believe you aren't meant for me. but, yeah... I had a bunch I wanted to say and now I dunno what I want to say other than please take these cyber hugs and kisses and know that you are loved and smile when you think of me.. I know when i'm not tear'n up I smile when ( ... )