yay!!!!!!!!!!!!! today is my trip, i leave at 3pm with mr. d. i love that kid so much, and i am glade i get to spend time with him and the rest of the fam. as for any probs i am just leaving them hear... even though they will be here for me when i get back i just dont need to think about crap this weekend ya know what i mean? anyway i can barely ( Read more... )

first 2 days went well, with only one minor prob. yep, the prep... naturally. she was more than alittle upset over my good news which i can't write here yet becuz i love to torture megs :) arent i just mean? lol. i got to stay up most of the day... like 9 or 10pm so i can attempt to alter my sleeping pattern for the trip. this means, some of u will ( Read more... )

i am trying hard to understand and to accept that somethings cant be, but i dont get it sometimes at all. anyway so last night i got to hang with my brother and the mary at this cool little chinese restuarant. megs should have went, maybe brian and the mike as well. but last night was my 11th day tonight will be my 12th str8 of working. even though ( Read more... )

its 6:30ish, i need to be back up at 2pm :( damned meeting. anyway i am alittle lost again, but what the fuck is new? i'll just sign off before i start to type stuff on here

alright its been awhile since i checked out lj so some posts naturally went unnoticed.... mary, i am alittle lost on one of your posts particurially. say what? what happened yo, please talk to me asap. matt, i am very proud of you for your accomplishment and i know if you further persue your education there will only be more for me to be proud of ( Read more... )

ok to be blunt... matt you bitched that no one posts anymore but you don't post either...hypocrite!!! lol. something new, i got an apology from the last person i'd expect one from ever. so now i am like, ut oh. lol. um so meg, why 22-27 just out of curiousity? and also i my suspicion(or however u spell that word) was right, i caused a problem :(

first off, mary...sorry i missed your call last night. now here's something new for ya'll......so a few nights ago(thursday) i talked to this girl i know. we hadnt talked for awhile so we had alot to talk about. somehow or the other the conversation went into the "so do u have a girlfriend still?" kinda question. i said no. which lead to "so if i ( Read more... )

hung out with everyone last night, then matt kind of went ok enough go home!! like oww, ok i am gone. not a bad night, still unsure of exactly what i saw when i went into the quick stop. wish i knew, but maybe it will be on the news today? all i know is there was alot of cops that showed up after i walked away from the store! well right now i got ( Read more... )

i did alot of thinking and came to a conclusion this morning.

i dont know why i try to find happiness. its something i dont think i am allowed to have. i cant figure out whats wrong with me, i am told nothing but if this is so why can't i be loved? feeling really sad right now. i hung out with mary but the minute i took her home i fell apart again. going to try to sleep i guess