i have never had such issues in my life. i have never felt so ugly, fat, unattractive or undesirable. i was just talking with lindsay. i told her how i felt like girls who are fatter than me but who are confident are better off, they get attention from guys. it seems so trivial to focus on guys...like what is this?? junior high? but the truth is, ( Read more... )

Rough night. I havent accomplished anything, but the night is young and i cant sleep. ive already cleaned and rearranged the kitchen and cleaned up all my stuff from the living room, and i still cant sleep...despite 2 glasses of wine. so now im on my third glass and maybe i might actually get some homework done or something. its one in the morning ( Read more... )

So its been a while since i've even had time to do the whole journal thing...and i dont think its the 'cool' thing to do anymore, but im bored and have had 2 glasses of wine and its the holiday season. i cant think of a better reason to do a journal entry ( Read more... )

soooo classes are over! im so pumped. hopefully i'll finish 2 of the 3 papers i have to write tomorrow and then finals thursday and friday and one more paper over the weekend, a final on monday and HOME. it seems like alot but its not. in one week from today i'll be at home! and THEN 2 days later i'll be 21 :) i want to get a tattoo for my birthday ( Read more... )

happier times are ahead....and theyre SO CLOSE. i cant take it. 2 weeks from tomorrow school will be over and i will be celebrating being 21 :) actually school will be over in 2 weeks from yesterday...its going to be the longest 2 weeks of my life. i dont even want to THINK about packing all my crap in my car...dont get me wrong, i cant wait to ( Read more... )

the worst possible happened. of course. my grandmother died. she died. thats so wierd and foreign. its odd to me because if i ignore how sad i am, for a second i can imagine my grandpa still lives in florida, and my grandma is still in the hospital, which is far from a happy situation, but at least i still have both of them. and then i come back to ( Read more... )

What a rotten fucking weekend. My grampa died on friday morning, which came out of the blue. we were all so concentrated on my grandmother in the hospital, and the man's survived like 6 heart attacks, no one really took them seriously anymore. well we're taking this one seriously, since it killed him. and my poor mom is the oldest and shes in ( Read more... )

tomorrow i register for my first semester as a senior in college. thats fucking unbelievable. my schedule will consist of ( Read more... )

so...i got some crazy scholarship i didnt apply for lol...its given to students in good standing who are children of law enforcement officers...i love my daddy. $500 woot woot ( Read more... )

my holiday wasnt too shabby...probly the most celebrating i've done on st. patty's in my life. last night i went to a st. patty's day party in jamestown with the dixon st. girls and got real drunk off nice cold keg beer :) i met some fun people and it was a good night...then nelle made green pancakes this morning lol. and it wasnt the best meal ive ( Read more... )