"may i have one more dance ( Read more... )

lol @ reading old livejournal entries. i dont know if its the daily 200mg dose of lamictal, but i feel pretty fucking great. i dont regret a single goddamn thing that has happened in the past year(s) because they all led to this very moment, in which i am quite happy. sometimes its scary because my life has never felt this stable before. its weird ( Read more... )

i took a shitload of klonopin today because i couldn't handle feeling anything. its just easier not to. i played diablo II all day today and now i'm going to dye my hair dark brown. i love my lazy sundays.

sometimes i want really horrible things to happen to me and i wish this year had never happened and wish it could be over already. i think i pretend to be happy sometimes or tell myself that i am, but i'm starting to doubt that more and more. tomorrow marks my 1 year anniversary in san francisco. i'm getting a little tired of it. i really need ( Read more... )

i looked at a pretty cool studio apartment by alamo square park today. it had a walk in closet big enough to turn into a tiny bedroom. i bet i could make it cute. and the main living area is really big. cute kitchen with space for a dining table. small bathroom but whatever. extra closet in the hallway. big windows. hardwood floors. $1190 a month. ( Read more... )

i miss Tristin more and more with each day that goes by. i dont know if i should attempt talking to him, or if its too soon. its been exactly 3 months since we broke up. i dont really know what to do.

sometimes i feel completely alone in the world and i know that i did it to myself. i wish i wasn't human. being a lazy cat sounds much better.

i'm probably going to lose my mind fo real one of these days, just letting y'all know.

i am too tired to exist lately. got a call today about a job interview next week at the glide foundation. its some sort of church that serves homeless people. this will be my first interview in over 2 months. time fucking flies when you have a lot of shit going down in your life. i hope i find someone to replace mine and Tristin's room by March. he ( Read more... )

the move went rather smoothly. i knew i would cry, and i did. couldn't help it. burst into tears right after i got back from my doctor appointment, and started packing all the last minute things. the new house is cute. i have a very limited amount of space that is "mine." pretty much just my bed and nightstand. a *tiny* amount of closet space. ( Read more... )