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today i went to school wearing a wig and sunglasses. i confused a lot of people. it was interesting. this one kid asked me if i had been in that class all year or if i was new. ha. sucker. even when there are people around me i feel alone and empty. its a weird feeling. i dont like it one bit. i just wish she would wake up. and be better. and ( Read more... )

i feel like im dying inside. waiting is a bitch. and we have to wait two years. ill be twenty. two whole fucking years to know anything for certain. i dont understand how people who know sarah can just go on with their lives like normal. maybe theyre just stronger than me or maybe they just deal with bad situations in different ways than i do. who ( Read more... )

these are the worst weeks of my life. not knowing what is happening and what is going to happen is making me die on the inside. my brain is turning into a bowl of rotting fondue. i dont understand why so many bad things happen at once. ive cried at least once a day since last monday. my best friend was in a horrible car accident and hasnt woken up ( Read more... )

i tried to lick paint off my hand. i think i might be going crazy...

i find it a little creepy that its so simple to just hop on into this cute little program from any which part of this thing called cyberspace and pull out a little list of friends from it. simply put, how can something just pick a random friend off a friends list just by knowing my livejournal name? frightening it is this new technology.

yes sox, kick that yankee ass.

so basically i leave tomorrow. for three weeks. to germany. see you guys later. hopefully the plane wont crash. speaking of, i just saw the forgotten. good movie. it was quite suspensful- i jumped about three times. the whole plot was a bit unexpected too. my thought it was too 'far fetched' which it probably was, but whatever. a little bit of far ( Read more... )

i just want people to be happy.

i wish elliott smith hadnt died. i wish a lot of people hadnt died. and i wish that aids didnt exist and that all those poor orphans in africa could be safe and not hungry. its just so sad. people should be healthy and disease free and die of old age or maybe just however they want to die. if people just stopped having so many god damn babies there ( Read more... )