i dont know what to do ( Read more... )

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Hey ( Read more... )

Dear LJ ( Read more... )

why do i bother with anything anymore
i just fuck myself over again and again
emotionally, academically, financially

im such a fucking mess

why do i bother with this fucking blog anyway?
only 2 people read it and they are the only 2 people who will talk to me these days anyway

i feel like im drowning..

its strange to me how one can feel so independent all the time until they are actually put out to be for themselves by themselves ( Read more... )

How do I sleep at night? I don’t know honestly. I do know that my actions haunt me while I sleep. I have bad dreams and nightmares pretty much everynight. I ask for it I suppose ( Read more... )

god i feel like dying tonight

id give my life for yours

please forgive me

but i just may be the lunatic you're lookin for ( Read more... )

sigh

i hate you
i know you said i would say that
but i do
i really seriously from the bottom of my heart and my soul hate you.
not because you are what you are or do what do
just because.

i just wrote a really really long tirade after this line and decided to erase it

tyler, you're the worst thing that ever happened to me.