i took a bunch of qualudes if you love me wake me up.

goodnight

mattw.

i had a great night saturday night. thank you very very very much for chillin with me. end of story.

mattw.

the planets fell apart a mother left a daughter stranded, something tragic and all the winds changed directions. she let her grow up the way no one should ever have to know. standing up invisible a best defense against a home of hate she lived a life of fear. strength of mind shes out of sight ( Read more... )

its incredible how one person at one specific instance will meet you and from that day on things are completely.... life is like a pinball machine and we just bounce off of each other, sometimes we get bonus points and rocketed into other awesome people and situations, setting off lights and earning another chance somewhere we just might need. and ( Read more... )

this weekend was one of the better ones. saturday night i had a great time out on a hardcore date that was an extremely good time. the rest of the weekend was a sick attempt at killing my buzz from saturday night.

i dont want to i dont want to be like you.

mattw.

last night was a good time over at the hajax household with some of the gang. i look forward to more times like that. get in.

mattw.

each day i watch the street waiting for a parade to some great achievment of modern civilization but all i see is homeless people panhandling, hookers getting picked up by johns, and the sun sucking the life out of everything that dreams.

god i love mesa.
on sleepless roads, the sleepless go.

mattw.

so im scared. i deserve everything i get. i suck.

mattw.

who believes in love anyways when weve got enough drugs at our disposal so that we never have to feel anything. fuck pain, fuck love, fuck friendship, fuck reality. lets just drive away forever.

mattw.

its the longing that keeps me going if i can just reach far enough, be strong enough, give just enough, will this be enough? Ive got you, dont watch your back im taking on your past. we took the right colored pills and had the right attitude. Their is only one way out of this lifestyle and im not ready to stand up for that ( Read more... )