430am. i put the dark blanket over my window so i can sleep all day tomorrow. my bed is freezing. gregor samsa for ever and ever amen.

i think everything counts a little more than you think

its 7:05 am. i just got in my bed. the sheets are cold but my whole body feels numb anyways.
and on and on.

its six o'clock. i have class now but im not going to go. ive been sitting inmy room alone for the past few hours watching netflix. ive been sick for almost two weeks now and my body feels tired. my head is a mess. i feel like im fading ( Read more... )

i mostly just feel pathetic on a daily basis. which is okay i guess ( Read more... )

i liked today.
i am exhausted.
goodnight.
:)

i guess i could convince myself to say this is what is best but mywhole body resists that thought with a cold shutter. discipline. its what needs to be done.

I cant stand to see you to be a bad man


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one more shitty new years. yo lay whatelse is new ( Read more... )

FUCK

im sitting in my room. im drinking alcohol. it is 4pm.
im dialing paul on the phone.
i had so many errands and stuff to get done today but i have no car and no one i want to ask to help.
i tried to walk somewhere btu its tooooo cold.

ive had a good week. one to ease the mind.
but fck, i keep telling you not to say it,
why did i come here.