Life  10 jen 1.....thats some funny shit.

I had this crazy idea that leaving bellarmine would be easy. When I realize what im missing out on...csa...kcsc....the chapel..etc...it actually hurts. I wont be at kcsc this year...it will be my first one missed. it sucks. but welcome to being poor...and having to be an adult. i looked at kcsc's new website...there are so many pictures of the old ( Read more... )

they say when life hands you lemons make lemonade....what about when life decides to put them in a potato gun and continue to shoot them at you? yep...thats what if feels like...one blow after another...yeah..no one knows what im talking about because i dont update enough to fill anyone in on the insanity of life right now. Everytime life starts to ( Read more... )

yes currently a lack of words has flooded my mind. I dont keep in touch like I should, I dont call when I know somehtings wrong, i dont write and I make promises i knwo I can keep...what kind of a person does this make me? I know yeah I try...like hell but it never seems enough. yes leaving bellarmine was a good thing for me, its been a weird ( Read more... )

i guess ive been hiding....the world seeming to begin the all to familiar collapse. Ur only as strong as you let yourself be and there are times when i feel i suck my own strength right out of me and become an infant unable tof end for herself. The trial is being moved but thatst he least of my worries.  The feeling of somehting being amiss ( Read more... )

October 26 and 27....are my trial dates...almost over.. . insane feeling. 
pretrial...oct 16...so yeah..please keep me in your prayers. hope school is going well!

one week down..entirely to many to go,. school is in..classes started....for both me and the fellow crazys down at BU and UofL and all the good schools. Its still weird to be walking on a new campus and not see a single soul that i know or recognize. I know no one,there are the familiar faces of people in my classes and the one person I know who ( Read more... )

I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU ( Read more... )

there are always certain things i cant say to you, they either get lost in the abyss that is known as my mind or they seem to stupid to even bother with. I dont even know what the point of this writing is at th e moment. its four in the morning i went to be way to late and woke up to early. Whats wrong? Im in a house where I feel like somone is ( Read more... )

It resides within you...unleashed by very minute or very large things. I finally allowed my hidden fear to come out and now it is growing more and more apparent  what this all means. As much as I would like to dismiss and shake my head to it..I can't. When he gets out I have to watch my back, I have to watch everyone I loves back, becuase I know he ( Read more... )