i'm prone to being a bit unrealistic...which is probably the source of my frequently disappointing disillusionment...sometimes having ice flowing my veins is very nice. perhaps it's all in the vast wasteland of my brain, but it's be nice to have people IM me instead of me contantly IM'ing that person, but i guess i don't have to IM that person... ( Read more... )

so i'm back in arcata...what else is there for me to say? plenty...though i don't feel like elaborating.

why is it human nature to want what i cannot have? sometimes i wonder whether it would be worth the effort to even try. true, i would never say it to his face. do i sound like a coward? if i do, then i ask you this: is shielding yourself from further hurt an act of cowardice? if it is, then yes, i am a coward.

fuck, what the hell is up with my mom? i mean, she's had the goddamned computer for almost a year, and she doesn'tfucking know how to use it! shit! she messes up on ebay, she asks for my help she starts yelling at me saying i'm a smart ass. wtf! if she thinks i'm a goddamned smart ass, then she shouldn't venture into things that she doesn't ( Read more... )

gods...i really wanna go back to HSU...i've been gaining weight...not a sack-of-potatoes-a-lot-of-weight, but enough for people to notice...i guess not having to run up three flights of stairs six times a day or more kinda shows, and not having to run up and down 50 stairs each time i want to eat or check my mail box shows, too. and all last year ( Read more... )

ok, i'm pissed...i always lose what i need exactly when i need it...and then there it is, right when i don't want to see it...and damned if i'm asking him for his info again ( Read more... )

livejournal...confuses the shit outta me...

man...some people are soooo freakin stupid...jay leno's jaywalking...i mean, damn, i know i'm not smart, but come on! maybe american people really are as stupid as people say...damn, we're all goin down the crapper...

damn, it has been a while. though i see little need for this, not when i have a XANGA! sorry, spontaneous outburst. but then again, who am i talking to? apologizing to? beats me. not like readers can track me down and torment me. *sigh* my soon-to-be-bitchy mood as nothing to do with HTML and everything to my headache. ever since i got home ( Read more... )

ikanaide, ikanide, kokoni ite...
wasurenaide, aishiteru...

i will miss you...

would it kill anyone if i wanted alone time? some people understand, but most don't. what the hell is their problem? are they so afraid to be alone they don't want me to be alone? if i feel like being alone, i damn well better be.