I saw a case of them laying on the ironing table, big ones too.. I forgot what I was looking for, but I found their counterpart in the closet. I cant seem to stop the images that come to my mind when I touch or see something that has potential. I'm afraid what is possible every day that goes by, I'm getting closer to it.

I think I just want to die =]

Who Gets Depression ( Read more... )

Life, what can I say about it? Im too proud to say that I wish my mommy and daddy were rich and spoiled me. Im too self supportive to say that someone else payed for my schooling, payed for my car, hell even payed for my computer. I payed for everything I own, and thats the way its going to be forever. Life is tough unless you are lucky of whos ( Read more... )

I feel a little confused lately. Its that confusion where your not sure what to do in life, I know you all have it now and then, it kind of seems unfair... I know I shouldnt be jealous but I am. I dont know if I should continue on the path of computers... somethings just not right about it, like its not right... ya know? What do I realy want to do ( Read more... )

Sometimes I pray to God, when I talk to God I don't ask him for money, I don't ask him to provide me with a nice car or a nice house to live in. I ask him to take me home. Im not selfish, im not greedy. I only want to help people... but it seems that no one wants to help me. I guess its because I care, I care about you, I care about every thing. I ( Read more... )

Ok well I gave in, cuz no one comes on LJ anymore, its just not the thing to do anymore so I moved to http://www.myspace.com/nelbmahs see you there! Goodbye Live Journal!

I have compiled a CD-R of every picture and audio recording of Josh, yes this includes all 3 talk shows, along with other recordings such as a song named "Kara" and others as well. Give me a call, or leave me a comment if you want a copy.

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Im sorry Josh that I never called to see how you were doing, im sorry that we stopped hanging out. I wish things turned out differently, and I wish that I was there to help you last night. I wish I could have said goodbye, told you that you were an awesome friend, I miss you Josh... Im just so sorry, im sorry.

Well school is almost over, thats a good thing. I hope to get another job soon, yet again I am going to Orlando from the 3rd-5th of May. Cant wait! But its going to be expensive =[ which sucks. But Its aight....... Hopefully I will make enough money to move out of this place. They recently built two new houses across from me where the trees used to ( Read more... )