Sometimes I feel like an empty soul, with nobody to love me, with no fulfillment of happiness left. The words that come out of everyone’s mouth now seem fake, unreal, or said just to please me. With the loss of passion, with the loss of truth, and full with hatred it’s hard for anyone to see where you are coming from when you are depressed, their ( Read more... )

Things seem difficult lately. My boyfriend doesn't seem to miss me. I don't have a best friend anymore. I am lonely. I have to get an 88 on my math test go get a 70 in the class which is what I need. I have to take 6 hours of tutoring to try and get an 88 or higher on my last math test. I hate trying hard for school, but I'd hate taking math again ( Read more... )

My life doesn't seem as much as a roller coaster as my days. I go from happy to sad to giggly, to teary eyed. Hmph. I had a good Thanksgiving break. I was too emotional during it though. I AM SO SO SO GLAD that Stefan came home too! <3 I couldn't survive a month without seeing him. He came to my aunts and uncles house with us we played soccer and ( Read more... )

Today I decided to go back and read some old comments. It made me think. Why did so many more people love me then than now? Have I changed that much? Or is it the others who have changed? I really miss the year 06. It was a time of new things, new faces, heart break, falling in love, a care free year. 07' hasn't been that bad, it just seems hard. I ( Read more... )

Wow. People defend people one night then the next night they prove me right. HA. I'm not as dumb as I may seem. I am not the jealous type, I just know people and how they work...most of the time. In this case I do. I don't believe in best friends anymore. That is why I have Stefan he is my boyfriend and my love, which is better than shitty ass best ( Read more... )

Why am I getting the feeling that I don't even want to surround myself with the people back at home. They say they care, but I think its all lies. I talked to my "best friend" for the first time on the phone since I have moved here, and that is only because I called him! It shouldn't be that two of my friends  are coming to visit me before him..or ( Read more... )

Do you ever feel like giving up, on yourself? I can't succeed in anything. i want to try I believe that I can do something, then when I try I just fail, give up, and cry. I hate being bad at everything. Please change it.

I don't care what people say. I love being here for people, even when I get nothing back. 

It will never be okay with me. Even if it is okay with you. I shall not forgive for this, I shall only act. It'll will change the way I view our relationship. Maybe not forever, but for a while. But, if that is okay with you, then so be it. There isnt anything I can do. I can be selfish, I can be greedy, and a bitch. I can't always act as if ( Read more... )

I've got the only people I need. I don't need you anymore. You've done your job, and it was great. But I believe your time is up.