eeeeeeeee, i'm having a good morning!  All my roommates are hungover, and I"m not! hahahahahaha. I'm not proud of it, but i had a huge purge sesh. last night after binging on M&M's but i guess it payed off, cause i'm back to a decent weight this morning! 5 more pounds to go!
hOPE ALL my ladies are doing well! I wish u all luck today! 
xoxo

been bingeing like a mad woman. I've gained 10 pounds since my "happy weight".   Actually, i'm bingeing now on easter coloured M&Ms. so friggin delicious..but soo fatty.

also, i hate my roomate. shes gross and fat, and such a bitch. 2 more weeks and im OUTTA HERE!

I weighed myself this morning...and gained about 2 pounds from the weekend at home.  F---!  I need help guys...can anyone gimme an idea of how to crack down and only consume foods that will go right through me?  i tried on one of my favorite shirts this morning and looked like a huge stripey blob! uuuuuugh.  It doesnt help that I have a massive ( Read more... )

Rehab sucks.  I'm still in group therapy.  I'm going tomorrow, and I feel like I have nothing to say other than that I'm a failure.  I really don't think i want to be better.  I'm at the border of a "healthy" weight and I want to be tiny again.  I want to feel my bones when I lie down.  I told my new bf of a month that I have an eating disorder. ( Read more... )

 So, I started dating this guy, and he likes to "see a woman that can eat" and every time we go out, he INSISTS that i get a ton to order, and stupidly, I do because I like him so much.  it would be too obvious if i ran to the bathroom after to throw it all up, so i dont.  I've gained 5 pounds already, and i'm afraid i wont be able to lose it!!!!  ( Read more... )

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Big update, here we go ( Read more... )

Oh my god, you guys have to download this song:  lonely christmas eve by Ben Folds.  Its from The Grinch, but its soo funny.  Its exactly how I feel during this time of year:  bitter, cynical and hungry. Does anyone else hate those people who are OVERLY happy and jolly around this time of year and they try to stuff your face with pastries?  check ( Read more... )

Yay, I completed my fast today, and its almost time for bed.  I do feel a little nauseous and hungry but here's what i've had today (liquids only ( Read more... )

God I love chewing gum.  I still havent had anything but coffee yet today and It feels amazing.  I'm starting to feel hungry though but the gum is keeping my mind busy.  Is soup considered a liquid if its not chunky?