Fucking Perfect ( Read more... )

I'm so tired and so afraid of everything all at the same time. I'm afraid of the thoughts that have been running through my head. I'm afraid of the fact that I no longer have an escape. My future is the only thing that is keeping me alive, and soon I don't even think that will do it anymore. I'm scared, afraid, lonley, and confused. I need this to

I wonder how the weekend will go. I wonder if she actually still wants to go with me, I know she won't say if she doesn't. I feel like she's ignoring me. She probably is. Fuck this shit.