so my roommate's decided to simply sell his house instead of rent it. and with a month to go before he does that, that means that I have only 1 paycheck to go before i'm effectively homeless ( Read more... )

I haven't really felt the need to write about me in awhile, least of all mid-day in the middle of a chaotic work and college schedule. But the other day, I just needed to. So I did. And I came to the conclusion I wasn't the 'me' I used to be back north. Lately I'm dark-hedged. Lately I don't care about work, I have no energy, I'm high strung (more ( Read more... )

its my birthday the 16th ( Read more... )

ho hum. its 5 am. i should probably get to bed. so far, i got 2 job interview things lined up and maybe an apartment and loan. scott wants to get his own loan so we'll see. the last 2 days him and i were fighting about stupid things, mainly because we're both really stressed. christmas took a large toll, and we're still mending. in the past few ( Read more... )

well im up! 1st step towards a lasting future. LOL. yeah. so i was taking a shower this morning to shave. no, wait. i reiterate: i was taking a BATH this morning to shave. since apparently the water bill will go up if i use too much water, but of course the drain doesn't work properly so whatever. and hot water lasts a whole 5 minutes. literally. ( Read more... )

i should re-interpret from the last entry: scott's family treats us like shit, on a day to day basis. i know in my last entry my hatred of them seemed unfounded and petty but in reality they're crass and deserving of malice. it was always "do our laundry do our dishes you're not pulling your weight around here pay us rent and we'll call you a ( Read more... )

been a long while, i know. lets see, since Feb. 28th i've known scott, March 4th i met him, and Easter we started dating. we've been together since then. we got engaged in September and got the rings. and now i need to get 2 jobs so i can get a loan so i can get an apartment with Angie. basically. There -is- a long-ass "hi im the extended emotional ( Read more... )

finally getting over my flu. and i really wish -certain people- wouldnt pretend that they play a role in my life and they can pass judgment. which reminds me of an article on PNO i read the other day, which (paraphrased) said "thou shalt pass judgment." it was a gay 10 commandments thing. really pissed me off, because everything was like "thou ( Read more... )

okay, so not really. actually i have the lack of anyone. but thats okay, because i have the necessary revelations for this month to acquire a state of mind more worthy than such. not to say im still not looking, i just realized that looking doesn't mean wearing my heart on my sleeve, but oh well. also something to think about in excess is wrong vs ( Read more... )

i had an odd dream, which woke me up. being an insomniac and having too much on my mind to begin with, i may as well simply stay up. but that doesn't mean i don't need to clear my head. i've left so many of you so uninformed. but so many of you should be. after the revelation that certain people do not belong in my life, and were thereby omitted, i ( Read more... )