i guess i should be glad that there is something inside of me that knows better. but to be honest...waking up anymore just doesnt seem worth it. im this huge disappointment to everyone i guess...i guess im the big druggie or something and im not in a soild college yet and im the one who got prego without being with someone in a permanate situation ( Read more... )

Well yea...pretty much just goin day by day...nothing is gettin easier and if anything im just angier and angier at a certain someone who i better not name or else his groupies will hound me for having an opinon!!! AND A ONE THIS PERSON DESERVES!!!!!!!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRR. i swear...i would just love to have 5 mins with him in a room he cant get out of ( Read more... )

title about says it. nothing much goin on...probably gunna get into it with dad...hes being gay and im not gunna stand for it. i saw joe today...still kinda stings.

Im not really sure why I am updating. It, along with everything else it seems, just has little or no meaning. Other than my mother, child and a few close friends...very little matters anymore. It seems that for now, I am just a person wondering around trying to live, but it keeps getting harder. I live with a brother who completely hates me, and no ( Read more... )

Things are ok for now. I think I am starting to really feel the baby move...lil shit is kicking my ass...kinda hurts to be honest. LOL. Work is going ok. Larry and Rhonda I think really like me so thats good. I am going to be waitressing the BBQ this summer so I wont have to be bending over the sinks as much which is good. Im kinda nervous tho, if ( Read more... )

Today i woke up in a good mood. It was a great mood. But while my mom was in the Medicine shop, my mood just shifted, which is known to do seeing as I am prego. But i just sat there for a min...and i realized that well...even is joe is being a cowardly jerk off, i...miss him. and i dont know if thats stupid or not...but i cant help it. I miss the ( Read more... )

Hahaha...i had a dream last night...joe came up to chefs table to talk to me and rhonda told him he probably shouldnt but he said he HAD TOO. so he comes to the back outside behind the resturant where i am burning boxes...hehehe ( Read more... )

Well, Joe didn't show up to work yesterday morning...yea for me right? Instead him and Sherry show up last night for dinner and stay FOR OVER 2HOURS!! Like, past close. I was really starting to worry that they were waiting for me. But no, they just came out of spite to show me how happy they are...i was just...im not pissed and maybe they really ( Read more... )

Her heart ahces in a way she didn't know was possbile ( Read more... )

I dont get it. Maybe? Im not suppose too in the end. Why is it that even why I try to do things right that somehow I am always the bad guy. Im so not perfect, I know that. Things suck at times...for everyone, and yea I make mistakes. But I have never intentional lied or hurt someone. Well ok, yea there are the common little lies, "Mom no i dont do ( Read more... )