I CAN SEE CLEARLY NOW, PART 9 / 12

[kachelofen]

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[jg1225]

I love this story! I'm curious about something though...early in the chapter Justin tells Daphne “It’s more than that. It’s having a ball missing. You have no idea how important cocks and balls are to a gay man. It’s never going to be the same again. I can’t ask that of him.” This seemed strange to me. Is Justin just trying to get Daphne to back off or does he really think this? It's such a Brian load of BS but it doesn't seem to fit with your Justin. No criticism of course, because again, I love this story even though I'm exasperated with both of them :-) Looking forward to Brian's viewpoint.

Julie

[kachelofen]

Ah, you spotted it. Yes, you're right, although he does worry about being 'damaged goods', it's not something he can't overcome and it's not his main worry. He was just basically trying to a) get Daphne to back off and b) telling her what he thinks Brian's opinion will be.

Thank you, Julie. :-)

[petulant2u]

Love Justin in this. Love his reasoning for ending it with Brian - "I'm not doing it for him, I'm doing it for me". Only unlike Brian, I think he really means it, and his reasoning is sound.

This life is no longer right for me. I can pretend as much as I like that I’m doing this for him, to spare him, but when the chips are down, I’m doing this for me. I no longer have the luxury to put his needs before my own.I've been waiting for him to say these words, but now that he's said them, I'm very sad. Sad that Brian wasn't capable, or just didn't want to meet Justin's needs

[kachelofen]

I think it's almost always true that one person loves the other more in a relationship. I just haven't worked out yet if this is true for Brian and Justin and if so, which one of them is it? Brian's POV is always a little unreliable even when he's just talking to himself. He hides a lot of stuff from himself most of all. I can't see him feeling obligated either, at least not after Justin dumped him. But we'll see what he will do.

Thank you, Gina.

[95baker]

"That thought just gives me a crushing pain in my chest that I just need to hug myself tight"...this made me think of my dental floss holding Justin's heart as he gathers the strength to let Brian go, fearing that he is no more than a blimp on his radar

[kachelofen]

He's going to need a lot of dental floss, isn't he? Especially with the double-whammy of having cancer and breaking up with Brian. I agree that he knows in his heart that what he had with Brian was more than sex, but maybe he thinks that compared to how he feels about Brian, it's really not much at all. And that can be just as painful as if Brian didn't have any feelings for him.

Thank you, Kate. And a big HUG to you, hoping that you'll be back of full strength soon. ♥

[lrknow]

*Curls into a ball and sobs*

*tries to recover*
You are killing me here...
This chapter hurt so good...you truly managed to capture Justin's pain and fear, makes me want to hug him and never let go :) and to say that Brian so clueless is a bit redundant now....

This life is no longer right for me. I can pretend as much as I like that I’m doing this for him, to spare him, but when the chips are down, I’m doing this for me. I no longer have the luxury to put his needs before my own.

This stood out among many many powerful passages...

Thank God tomorrow's saturday...you are going to make it better right????? *is nervous with only 3 chapters to go*

Hugs,
Kimi

[kachelofen]

Justin could certainly do with a hug, although I dare say, he would prefer Brian. Wouldn't we all? :-D

Don't know about making it better, but I'm hoping to post to tomorrow. :-)

Thanks, Kimi.

Hugs,
Betty

[bksbracelet]

You are going to make us and Brian and Justin suffer through a couple of chapters lol. Wonderful chapter thank you

[kachelofen]

Don't I always? Lol. Thank you.