Just because I'm not responding doesn’t mean what you say is true- or that it doesn’t hurt. The fair-weather friends are keeping score in journals and in whispered voices. That’s okay. Im never gonna pretend to be more than I am- just a kid trying to figure myself out, and how dare I? The glue isn’t even dry on my pity party invitations and im ( Read more... )

I woke up pretty much as drunk as I was when I went to sleep.

Does she kiss your eyelids in the morning when you start to raise your head? And does she sing to you incessantly from the space between your bedroom walls? Does she walk around all day at school, with her feet inside your shoes looking down every few steps to pretend she walks with you? Does she know that place below your neck that's your favorite ( Read more... )

2 am and I'm still awake writing a song. If I get it all down on paper it's no longer inside of me, threatening the life it belongs to. And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd because these words are my diary screaming out loud and I know that you'll use them however you want to. But we can't jump the tracks, we're like cars on a cable. And ( Read more... )

We're bullets in the chamber waiting for the powder and the hammer to kiss. I love the way fall feels in my nose. Oranges and yellows burning leaves and us always trying to make our way upstream. The world has a funny way of playing tricks on us. One day I've got it all figured out and the next it's a mess. These words are poor substitute for my ( Read more... )

i am jumping out of a plane today...

you wake up but not really. in the bedroom you grew up in. it's the only place on this entire planet that is yours- the only place on the planet that understands you. it understands the way your nerves flare every time you think about talking to anyone- scared into shyness at the thought of opening your mouth but the way you are the best hypocrite ( Read more... )

"go back to what it meant back then". you never imagined yourself moving deep into the summer and disappearing. for me it was always with you. and then things got crazy. you stopped calling me. i stopped trying to call but not in my head. and then you got malicious but i'm guessing only because you learned from the best- take back your taste and ( Read more... )

after awhile when you bounce back and forth between different hearts nothing gets old. you never really have to mean anything to anyone. noone ever fell in love with anyone because of empty pockets or red splotched eyes. drove around for hours tonight just to keep myself from feeling anchored. weighed down. to keep my mind off thinking about what ( Read more... )

i have intimacy problems with the world. imagine the chemistry of swallowed DNA. the smoke curled off of his lips. for a second i was dying to be it. dying to be as clever and kissable as him. alone together. its funny how easy it is to sleep with someone, but how hard it is to sleep next to someone. it’s too intimate. it makes my heartbeat race ( Read more... )