Let me start this by saying people who need prefaces are those unsure, halfway there - arguments can't stand on there own (neither can we). In writing rules exist but are never followed. That is my preface. What you are going to read won't make sense but this preemptive paragraph makes that okay (because I know it). I'm not the kind of kid who ( Read more... )

Life never ceases to amaze me with the tricky turns it throws my way. I am going to Austin with Jamal tomorrow. We talked about it and decided that we would go up there with no title for ourselves other than friends and no expectations. We are going to focus on his test and making sure he passes so he can get his license and then see where it goes ( Read more... )

I don't understand. I don't understand anything it seems. I don't know why I am still open to letting people in when all that ever happens is my heart gets broken. Things went from perfect to... hell. Maybe I'm the idiot. Maybe I need to just say fuck it and give up. Maybe I need to turn into some bitch or slut because it seems like they always get ( Read more... )

I am lost in thoughts of first kisses and I can't stop smelling my hoodie. I'm sure pretty soon every lingering scent of him will be gone, but this smile will not leave my face any time soon. As amazing and perfect as it all feels now, I know that tomorrow it is back to school where I have to face his girlfriend. I have never ever been in a ( Read more... )

Well the future's got me worried such awful thoughts. My head's a carousel of pictures, the spinning never stops. I just want someone to walk in front and I'll follow the leader. Like when I fell under the weight of a schoolboy crush. Started carrying her books and doing lots of drugs. I almost forgot who I was, but I came to my senses. Now I'm ( Read more... )

songs from the road:

`this is my mixed tape for her. it's like i wrote every note with my own fingers`the mixed tape - jack's mannequin ( Read more... )

what a time my life has been. it was a big weird weekend for me. these are the things i learned this weekend ( Read more... )

It feels really good to finally take control of my emotions and be able to say `fuck it` whenever I want. I'm sick of being treated like shit from people in my life and I'm not going to allow it to happen and put the blame on myself anymore. I'm done with it and it feels really fucking good.

I woke up this morning with a bad hangover
And my penis was missing again.
This happens all the time.
It's detachable.

( the madness of last night before the REAL madness even happened )

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