i'm bored. i cant fall asleep. i want someone to pretend like they care...this sucks. i dont know what to think.

i'm so fucking tired!!! i cant take much more of this not having energy. i NEVER feel like doin anything other than sleeping. i'm goin to the doctor on thursday so imma tell him he needs to give me sum pills or sumthin that'll bring back my energy. i slept for a few hours this evening and i'll prolly sleep all evening tomorrow when i get home from ( Read more... )

i finally cleaned my room today! i was sad b/c i woke up all late at 11 this morning, but i was pretty productive w/ the cleaning and all and then i went to work at 2. i dont mind bein at work but i'm sick of coming home every night and not feeling like doin anything b/c my back or sumthin is hurting. i've only got tomorrow to get thru tho and then ( Read more... )

I got exactly what I asked for, something to take my mind off of Joey. But it's not exactly what I had in mind. Now when I'm not worrying about Joey and his dad and family (which i hardly ever stop thinking about), i'm worrying about my best friend. I'm even more angry that's there's nothing I can do to make either one of them feel better. I'd ( Read more... )

This is one of those things that I never thought would happen to me. well, here it is, ready to turn my life upsidedown. But I still think everything happens for a reason and I know I'll get through this okay. *it's just too bad you can't be here for me. it would really make the situation a thousand times better*

So far, this has been one of the B*E*S*T weeks of my life!:-) So many good things have happened to me, so now i'm just waiting for somethin to go wrong. Finding out that i passed English 12 was one of the most exciting things that's ever happened to me!! I gave Mrs. Montanari (yes, the teacher i'm scared to death of) like 10 hugs when she showed me ( Read more... )

being tipsy at 1:45am on a school night cant be a good idea. i'm just so tired. i'm in love w/ someone new. it gives me something to think about. wow, i'm falling off my bed and i really cant type. this is so hr now. it's never like this. i'm going to sleep.
i left out the t's and mistook v for c.

i'm not sorry anymore. i tried to do everything you said, but it only works when i do things my way. my life flows better when i'm doin things i'm used to. this weekend was amazing b/c i spent it w/ so many ppl and i did all the things i used to do last summer. i definitely needed this long weekend. and i slept in till 10 this morning. i enjoyed ( Read more... )

last night was alright i suppose. so much for not drinking anymore. but i'm good now and i'll prolly go another 2 months or so w/out drinking. i gave away my bottle of 151 w/out takin another sip of it b/c i never wanna be as wasted as i was that one night at giannina's house. *HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAM!* well i've gotta work 2-10 today. it shouldnt be ( Read more... )

You weren't supposed to see. That's not the way i planned for it to happen. But it did. And i just keep falling. I wanted to tell you how bad of shape i'm in. i've sunk into the darkness and i'm attracted to nothing but evil. i'm turning out to be just like her, the way i swore i'd never be. but i just want ONE. that's all they say it takes. one of ( Read more... )