You know Emi, I've had mixed feelings about this whole saga. Somedays I think, "damn, what a fucking asshole." And somedays I think..."wow, I admire him for being so honest."
You can't change how you feel. Even if someone has to get hurt. And I know the guilt. I do. But I understand. I feel for BOTH of you. Big time.
i know, i know. ugh. i've had moments of serious self-loathing over all this, too. you know how much i hate "guys"... and here i am being one. i guess that's one of the reasons i've come across so coldly... having to seperate myself from myself so i don't beat up on myself too much.
the temptation towards old SI habits has been greater than in some time. i'm sure i'll keep it at bay... one thing though - i could really use a stronger flogger! ;)
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thanks :)
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You know Emi, I've had mixed feelings about this whole saga. Somedays I think, "damn, what a fucking asshole." And somedays I think..."wow, I admire him for being so honest."
You can't change how you feel. Even if someone has to get hurt. And I know the guilt. I do. But I understand. I feel for BOTH of you. Big time.
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the temptation towards old SI habits has been greater than in some time. i'm sure i'll keep it at bay... one thing though - i could really use a stronger flogger! ;)
beans. yum. i miss cooking for you.
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since I'm living on breadsticks and laffy taffy. ha.
*passes you the razor blade*
I'm going to hell. Bad Emi! Bad Emi! Hurting yourself is BAD!
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