so, it feels like there is a big gaping hole where my heart should be....but, i really don't know if it was ever really there in the first place. its kinda funny how even the people that claim to care about you find the need to out you down, and turn you into a bad guy in their heads just to make their empty lives of not caring about anyone seem ( Read more... )

ok, so i kind of feel like im being cornered here....but im not gonna go into too many details with that, i just need to get this shit out of my head. wez has been writing lots of emails to me, he says,"come over for sure at 8", blah blah blah, to talk and get ready for the rage. and, i haven't heard from yuri at all this whole week. he never ( Read more... )

alright fuckers, i got a new email address and i have msn messanger now too. its Zombiesdontfeel@hotmail.com, just in case anyone cares. i have a new aim sn too, but if i wanted you to know it, then you already do.

ok, so im not sure if this update is working, because my journal doent show me my new entries for some reason, but whatever.... so, looks like im gonna go to yuri and wez's on sunday. wez wrote me an email saying that i should "definately" come, and even though thats a bit curious, i'm gonna go anyway. i'd feel really bad if he thought that i hated ( Read more... )

man, karma and fate must have an ongoing bet with eachother to see who can turn me insane quicker....

i got some new shoes....yay me! they're little brown and white saddle shoe lookin heels. and guess how much? a dollar, yep, thats right bitches! a dollar! thrift stores rock my socks!!!!! told yuri that i dont think im gonna come over sunday, but unfortunately, yuri has my white face make-up, and i need to use some of it!!!! lame!!! starting to ( Read more... )

not really interesting, and probably pointless to read. just honest emotion ( Read more... )

so, for any of you that care, or dont know, things just got kida weird. ok, ne boi, the one that was great until he dropped the, i have an online gf bomb on me, is a scientologist, as well as the cool roomate and cool roomates wife. this roomate also happens to be a spiritual counselor, and wants to do some work with me, and i saved the best for ( Read more... )

just got kind of an odd email....not bad, just odd....another unexpected twist in the plot....and im going to find out where this road is going.

this song descibes how i feel better than i can ( Read more... )