Who knows, maybe in the end I just deserved to be forced to continue this game of solitaire.  I've said it before, that I try not to believe in karma and things of the sort, but sometimes it feels like there's no other explanation my mind will settle on.  I reject people all the time, and though I feel bad about it as I hate the act being done to ( Read more... )

Racism keeps popping up.  More than that, I'm still astonished by how apathetic people who are supposed to be your friends can be.  Really, this is one the biggest if not the biggest problem with the people in this country.  The fact that no one gives a fuck about anyone but themselves.  Maybe I'm just too nice.  The next time I hear someone say " ( Read more... )

The last bit of money was used up.  The bus ticket lays on the desk beside me.  Suddenly, sitting here feels so comfortable, so right.  Could it be fear creeping up my spine, or my unconscious mind trying to rationalize with me?  I'm not sure.  On one hand, it feels this will be good for me.  But I've never been one for uncertainties, so on the ( Read more... )

Back.  Had fun.  Even rode the Dragster.  I surprised myself again.

Why do so many people only care about sex sooo daaaamn muuuuuch?  Yeah, it's fun...really fun...sometimes, but there's so much more to let your conscious dwell upon in contrast to it.  Maybe it's because I've had so many horrible sexual encounters, but it's far from my main focus.  ( Read more... )

Going to Cedar Point for the weekend.  This is the last of my money and thus the last of spending days feeling content.  It'll be worth it though.  Moments like this can't be passed up because of illusionary limitations like money ( Read more... )

Finding a job is a lot harder than I remember ( Read more... )

What's even more astonishing than the fact that so many people today are still horribly racist is the fact that so many people don't find it to be that big of a deal.  What I mean is not someone hearing someone saying something racist and not thinking of it as negative, but hearing someone call someone a nigger or spic and thinking "well I'm not ( Read more... )

Well that was one crazy weekend.  Can one person know too many lesbians?  I'm starting think it's possible.  I can't complain this time however.  I had my share of time with a few guys.  All in all, it was a lot more fun than I expected it to be.

And I have to do it again in two weeks for gay day at Cedar Point.

...I swear I'm only going for the ( Read more... )

This has probably been the only day I've felt was productive since I quit my job.  I got my ear pierced up, heh.  I got the lobe re pierced since I lost the stud sledding last year and I got a hoop in the upper ear.  Ironically, I had to drive past my former place of work to get there.  I was tempted to go in and get food, but I fought it off ( Read more... )

Summertime isn't going quite as planned.  I won't be in California anytime soon.  I wasn't too keen on going anyway.