oh wow, this moved me so much. i must admit i prefer my kaisoo fluffy as hell (and angst-free), but this story just grabbed onto me and wouldn't let go. it's heartbreaking that they both had to go through so much, but at the same time, it was beautiful how two broken people came together to help make each other whole. i could tell by the end it wouldn't be a smooth journey for either of them, but the important part is that they're both now trying, TOGETHER. thank you so so much for writing this jewel of a fic.
Hugs and awkward kisses to you >,<aerinikolaiApril 10 2017, 22:07:08 UTC
It means so much to me that this fic has tugged your heart even a little. I do love my kaisoo fluffly af (It's easier to write them that way as well) but in a quite similar instance, the prompt just won't let go of me; I had to write it. I'm so glad you liked it (it is far from being a jewel, but if you say it is, I'll believe it!) and I appreciate it that you took the time to leave a comment as well! You encouraged me in so many ways. Thank you, too, angel
Alright, let me try to pull myself back together and to regroup my thoughts, as they're still scattered all over my head.
Firstly, thank you for not romanticizing depression, self-harm, and any of the struggles you wrote about. You don't need to know the gruesome details either, but I've been walked a path similar to Jongin's. There was a knot in my throat before I was halfway through the first part, and by the end of it there were tears in my eyes. Thank you for writing this and for providing this interesting and raw insight about depression and how not everything is rainbows and butterflies, and how just saying "I love you" won't heal all wounds, won't be enough to patch the cracks.
Kyungsoo, you’re a hurricane that turned my life upside down; but it was a beautiful mess. All for you, my love. This is so poetic? In fact, there were so many wonderful lines all over your fic that I'll cherish and hold close to my heart. I guess it's all a matter of perspective, and to Jongin meeting Kyungsoo was just like that. A beautiful mess.
Bearhugs for you!aerinikolaiApril 10 2017, 22:43:13 UTC
I have no words (but I'd probably finish this reply with a lot of them) as to how overwhelmed I am when I read your comment the first time. I'm so glad that the fic sent its message the way I designed it to - to show my reality of depression and how menacing it is. Knowing it has tugged your heart inspired me a lot, and finding someone who struggles in life, no matter how big or small of a matter it is, read this, makes me feel that the purpose of this fic is fulfilled
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So so beautiful. My fingers are crossed while reading this since i don't want this to end in a sad ending, or one of them giving up, but they'll live, hopefully together. So beautiful. I love how jongin get better through jongin, and kyungsoo unknowingly getting better though he has issues. And i so so so love the ending,
It’s the perfect time - my perfect timing.
I push myself up.
And I take one step, and another, wobbly at first but more confident after each one.,
I'm imagining what will jongin's reactions be when he saw that. I really love this.
Tbh, I was having thoughts on writing a sad ending, but that will defeat the purpose of this fic - that is to give hope to those who need it badly. I'm so glad that I did the right thing to end this in a hopeful, happy note. Thank you for finding this beautiful. It means so much that you enjoyed this (despite the feelings of uncertainty hihi).
Ah, Jongin's reaction! Honestly, that's my favorite part in writing this - leaving the readers to imagine how it went after he sees Ksoo taking baby steps for him. I'm hoping he's a sobbing laughing mess when he saw ksoo!
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Firstly, thank you for not romanticizing depression, self-harm, and any of the struggles you wrote about. You don't need to know the gruesome details either, but I've been walked a path similar to Jongin's. There was a knot in my throat before I was halfway through the first part, and by the end of it there were tears in my eyes. Thank you for writing this and for providing this interesting and raw insight about depression and how not everything is rainbows and butterflies, and how just saying "I love you" won't heal all wounds, won't be enough to patch the cracks.
Kyungsoo, you’re a hurricane that turned my life upside down; but it was a beautiful mess. All for you, my love. This is so poetic? In fact, there were so many wonderful lines all over your fic that I'll cherish and hold close to my heart. I guess it's all a matter of perspective, and to Jongin meeting Kyungsoo was just like that. A beautiful mess.
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It’s the perfect time - my perfect timing.
I push myself up.
And I take one step, and another, wobbly at first but more confident after each one.,
I'm imagining what will jongin's reactions be when he saw that. I really love this.
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Ah, Jongin's reaction! Honestly, that's my favorite part in writing this - leaving the readers to imagine how it went after he sees Ksoo taking baby steps for him. I'm hoping he's a sobbing laughing mess when he saw ksoo!
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