[fic] A New Beginning (CI one shot)

[kajornwan]

I did promise a one shot following CI every once in a while, and since I don't have much time, this has been written on a whim one morning. It is not beta-ed, and it isn't much, but consider it as a thank you gift for those who are still around wanting more, and as proof that I'm not a total sadistic witch LOL (Whoever you are, know that I shall

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it's long and hope you won't get bored part 1

[happyendingao]

It’s going to be long. I feel so much to say after marathon reading your trilogy and almost every comment TWICE in the last three weeks

Re: it's long and hope you won't get bored part 1

[kajornwan]

Get bored? You've got to be kidding me. I used to hold lengthy comment competitions LOL I love lengthy comments (every writer should and I hate those who make readers feel awkward for commenting a lot)

First of all thank you so much for taking time to let me know you and others I don't see have been enjoying this story. LJ is very quiet these days and even before there aren't many MxF fans around in the English fandom. Knowing this really does help me continue to write because for the effort it takes to write a single chapter, there's really not much point to post if no one is reading. It really comforts me to be reminded that these past 7 years have not been a waste of time. I just wish I could read the Chinese fics too because, damn, nobody is writing Fei seriously in English anymore *cries*.

There is considerable portion in every chapter describing how your characters feel and what they think about, without which there wouldn’t have been emotional rollercoasters. I'm glad to hear this really because some might say I spend too

Re: it's long and hope you won't get bored part 1

[happyendingao]

Glad to get a reply from you!

Regarding the few Fei fic in English... I guess that because YA is not a Tier 1 popular BL mangaka ? Either in China. But we do have MUCH more Asami/Mik/Yoh/Yan * Fei fanfic. And we Fei fans are at least half number of all VF fans seen from fic posts and discussions in our Baidu tieba.

If emotion description is your writing style, don't drop it. Personally I like it very much, since I do feel very confused and frustrated if I cannot figure out what an author tries to communicate. If you let readers to interpret by themselves it might not result in an angst feeling you try to deliver, as readers have various responses to a scene, an act or talks between characters without proper guide.

it's long and hope you won't get bored part 2

[happyendingao]

I love your OCs very much, especially Yoh and Feo. I’d say Feo is a woman with high dignity and self-confidence. She loves Mik but will never beg the love be returned, and she is so sure that Mik knows she is the one who knows him best, the one who he will seek for comfort when he is hurt. As for Yoh…can I say your Yoh is really my dream husband type? I’m not a strict Mik * Fei fan, and I read Yoh * Fei sometimes. But there’s always a feeling that these two don’t have a foundation to be together. Boss and subordinate. The Yoh I like most is the one in “Yours”, where “There was no fear, no obligation, nor does he allow himself to be or feel dominated by his superior. In the profession, they were on an entirely different level. As a man, face to face, Fei Long could not say for sure”. Yes, as a man face to face, I believe among the two it’s Fei who would find himself cry on the other’s shoulder and look for support; and the emotional blackmail at the end is so damn GOOD! NAUGHTY BOY SHOULD BHARDE PUNISHED, HARD! Strangely I don’t feel

Re: it's long and hope you won't get bored part 2

[kajornwan]

I'm glad you enjoyed my OC (although I can't really say that Yoh is one, but yeah, he gets so little time in the manga we might as well kidnap and save the guy XD). Feodora has become everyone's favorite and she was so hated before which I find very satisfying as a result! She's the perfect image of a Chinese wife IMO (since my roots is actually Chinese XD) - perfect housewife who also holds the leash on the husband and the center of the universe in her household! She is a strong woman and needs no sympathy from a man. And in a way, her love for Mikhail simply can't be beaten and very similar to Yoh x Fei IMO. In fact, her creation was due to the fact that I want Mikhail to have a Yoh of his own, and draw the contrast of what YxF should have been and failed to be in manga, and also to make Fei realize that Mikhail is one hell of a man and that Fei has been taken him for granted far too long. It's a wake up call in a sense, and I think Feodora did slap Fei to his senses a lot.

But there’s always a feeling that these two don’t have a

Re: it's long and hope you won't get bored part 2

[happyendingao]

FEO: she really emerges herself in Retribution. She feels like a sincere girl who loves Mik very much and Mik's happiness is her top priority in CI when she tells Fei that Mik loves him and decides to marry Mik on the knowledge that Mik needs a marriage under the pressure of Vlad. But in Retribution, she suddenly turns out to be a very brave, decisive superwoman who sees a big picture. She's beautiful and knows how to rule people, she cooks well and is able to fly a jet! If I were Fei I would feel so threatened and scared

Re: it's long and hope you won't get bored part 2

[kajornwan]

If I were Fei I would feel so threatened and scared.

LOL Oh, I believe Fei constantly thinks to himself from now on every time someone pisses him off, "ohh you're lucky it's me and not Feodora you're dealing with you prick!"

He does that on purpose for something else. Revenge for Mik grabbed Alejandro?
But of course, you nailed it. Revenge, bro. How does THAT feel? XD On top of that, Alexei is a Casanova, he doesn't think a lot when he sees something beautiful. But the root of the brothers trouble isn't that simple really.

YA and her publisher want to mess things up and create a potential pair, so they could rip off wallets of fans who are interested in Yan.
At this point I totally see that coming. After the unspeakable action of putting Asami on the cover of Fei's novel with no Asami in it, I think they're capable of turning Fei into a woman if there are enough requests =_=

it's long and hope you won't get bored part 3

[happyendingao]

Finally come to the ending of CI …Every comment says it’s sweet, am I the only wield fangirl who senses a little bit sad?! Fei’s well aware that Mik could ditch him without a blink if he’s bored, no matter whether he’s the Mik before his memory loss or not. There is no promise, no guarantee. And you are so right about “Happiness is found in the journey, not the end. You take what you can today, and keep it for tomorrow”. This is real Mik, and this is what in reality. And it is a little bit sad and cruel because it is what in reality. You have passion at first. However passion fades quickly. You are happy at first. However conflicts comes soon. You take happiness today, and save it for tomorrow when you get bored, disappointed and tired; and those beautiful mommies are what support you when you think you may not stand. I always think pure love between couples won’t work alone, only with responsibilities, mutual understanding and mind of thanksgiving, they together can give a long term relationship. That’s exactly why Feo and Yoh could

Re: it's long and hope you won't get bored part 3

[kajornwan]

am I the only wield fangirl who senses a little bit sad?! On the contrary, I think most people find the ending unsatisfying and rather bitter-sweet ever since the epilogue. You are absolutely right that Fei is well aware of the danger of being with Mikhail, which makes him the complete opposite of Yoh but is also what makes Mikhail who he is and why he's capable of winning Fei in the first place. Mikhail is almost a role model for Fei for "moving on" and "kicking life in the butts" and would always force Fei to come out of the dark to be in the sun and to look at the big picture. And the big picture really is that life is uncertain, and you can only tackle it one day at a time with a smile or you will just end up on your death bed realizing you have missed all the chance to smile over trying too hard to control life. I even think that one day they might actually break up for good after this, and it wouldn't matter, because Mikhail would have given the greatest gift to Fei, and that is how to appreciate *his* life and love himself for

Re: it's long and hope you won't get bored part 3

[happyendingao]

I know, I know, you are absolutely right.

But I just cannot imagine that one day, Mik will say " Fei, I'm bored with you. Give me the Love Key and let's kiss goodbye". This is so heartbreaking for Fei...Living in a relation you are certain that it won't survive, but are still willing to be in until breakup, dear Fei. What will Mik do when he feels nothing for Fei and at the same time knows Fei slept with Alexei when they still both in love with each other, and Alexei was killed by mistake because of Fei, and what Fei did for pursuing Asami that hurt him so much?

Why I suddenly feel Feo so wise and Yoh so lucky?!

Re: it's long and hope you won't get bored part 3

[kajornwan]

Actually I don't think Mikhail would ever "get bored" of Fei and I think Fei is now strong enough to not worry too much and I think he would be the one who chases Mikhail now if that man tries to leave XD. His self-esteem is pretty high now I think, and only those with low self-esteem live worrying that their lover might leave one day. On the contrary, I think if they would ever break up it won't be over being bored, it would be the differences in their personality that will crash now that Mikhail has gone past the "chasing" period. What I would worry about if I were Fei, is whether Mikhail has been chasing him or an image of him that makes Mikhail so willing to ignore all his faults in the past. Fei, on the other hand, has always embraced Mikhail's faults and hated it then loving it in the end. I really think that Mikhail may wake up one day realizing that he can't change nor can he make Fei Long happy without changing and that is the biggest problem. Fei is going to suffer because he loves Mikhail, and Mikhail will suffer because he

[mean_green_ogre]

Oooooooooh, look what I found on the Daily Mail today, that made me smile because I had to think of you and the boys right away. It also made me sad, because I don't want those Hollywood idiots to wear "our" love bracelet. It was never yours to have, bitches, lol!

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2836111/Manacled-women-paying-4-000-look-bracelet-screwdriver.html

P.S.: Sorry, forgot to login the first time.

[kajornwan]

Believe it or not I had been gone so long I just found this *bangs head on wall* and wow, it really makes me miss writing this trilogy. I stand my ground on one thing, I deserve a free Love bracelet from Cartier for all that marketing!!

Thank you for the link although it's unforgivably late T_T

[mean_green_ogre]

Awwwwwww, you found that post at last!!! :) That just put a smile on my face. I knew it had to have been lost somewhere (spam folder or simply overlooked), but I was hoping you would catch it eventually

[mean_green_ogre]

Just in case... look in your spam folder, I just posted something with a link and was told it would be marked as spam, so make sure to check that out. ;)