i feel like i have a lot of things to say

and yet i never say anything worth saying

SO yeah...anxiety disorders, eating disorders, transfering schools, commuting to fairfield U, =things you missed if i havent spoken to you in a while ( Read more... )

I am most likely going to be doing something really really bad very soon. I am unsure as the the effects of this choice. like most things it could go one of two ways it could be great, and change what I have been about for 3 years now. or it could crash and burn. Im guessing the second only because this is me and that is what I do. which begs ( Read more... )

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socrates and dumbledore have very simmilar views on education, life, death, morality etc...

too bad socrates couldnt do magic he might have lived longer.

i'm home, it's a long story, but i'm taking classes and getting healty so go ahead and judge like you all always do.

its going to be hard, im going to be sad, but its going to be worth it eventually. i just have to be strong, and stop planning how our christmas tree will be decorated when we're married is all. clean break this should be interesting. i should keep a tab on how many times i read new moon and cupcake...or was is shrimp whichever now that this has ( Read more... )

i need a new musical to drown myself in. right now its looking like either next to normal or hair...although its not new. funny girl is kinda in the running as well but its just a few songs. it'll probably be next to normal though it will be hard to replace my obsession over sunday in the park with george.

and he is leaving... case closed. i had thoughts, questions, but never mind that now like i said the case is closed. what miffs me the most is that we always plan stuff and we never do it. talk is cheap matt. i have to go buy gummy bears...

everything feels so wrong, but everything is back to normal now. so i guess normal isnt what it used to be. i am discontent in my contentment. its for the best though, with this i am used to and expecting it to not work out and to be slightly painful. ive done it before and gosh darnit i can do it again. one cog is missing and without him i am ( Read more... )

my life is so odd right now, its like im in fucking wonderland ( Read more... )