Fuck you, that's right you don't know me you may think you do, yeah Richards so nice, he's so sweet well you know what outside actions do not define inside emotions. I'm fake yeah that's rigth I said it FAKE I pretend to try and make the people around me happy when in all actuality I'm falling apart. At this point I could care less about life or ( Read more... )

What is love ( Read more... )

I'm lonely, I loved her so much that I forgot about everything and everyone, even the world around me and yet I still ache for company even after what all the company I have ever had has done to me, why? I don't just question that I question myself, my stupidity I mean why would I want to fall into that trap again why not just stay away from it all ( Read more... )

Why does God continue to torture me? why can't he let me move on and make it as though she never existed in my life? Probably because without her I wouldn't have God at all so if she doesn't exist in my life then he doesn't. How could that be true though, I mean she calls me all the time she still calls me sweety, babe and all those other names ( Read more... )

Sorry everyone I kind of crawled into a big hole when I got home I mean the love of my life just screwed me over and not in a good way what would that do to anyone else I ask you? I hate loving her but it's just how it is I mean the nice guys always get fucked I guess. That's twice now third time means there's no chance for any love in my life ( Read more... )

Man it may have been a bad week so far but you know what I'm stoked because Bruce is going to Con which means I get to meet him finally although it's been a tough week with Clairissa and all atleast God is bringing me home in time to meet Bruce. This totally brightens up my like entire month well I'll go with entire year I feel better now thank you ( Read more... )

I'm coming home I'm working on how as I type this everything shall be explained in council when I return I love you all.

RPG

Yeah really what have I done right? LOL I should be fine, I hope... I don't know if I should stay here or come home I really like it here and it's cheaper to stay than to come home you know I would put up a poll so you guys can vote but it's my choice LOL. I love Clairissa guys and I'm hoping she comes to her senses and when she does I would like ( Read more... )

Well guys first of all I love each and everyone of you despite the fact that the majority of you are mad at me or frustrated with me, just know I left with reason I came here not because I wanted to but because I was sent here. I felt this was my calling and so far so good I'm hoping to have a media job soon and I'm trying to work things out with ( Read more... )

You all knew something like this was going to happen so here goes I will tell you now, I'm moving to Pensylvainia however that is spelt and you ask why if you don't already know or assume then yes it's to be with Clairissa but we will be back in January 2006. I love you all always remember that and keep me in your thoughts and prayers okay Love Ya' ( Read more... )