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We're living in a pornified world and I am a pornified girl.
For the last year, I've been volunteering at The Grand Illusion Cinema and The Center for Sex-Positive Culture. Most of my volunteer hours at CSPC are in the library, which is a fascinating place. Since the other librarians are more enamoured with the books, the growing collection of video pornography is a bit neglicted, so I've taken on the task ( Read more... ) -
inert
I'm still in a state of inertia, but at least decisions finally taken form and the fear of making even more mistakes by taking the wrong path are evaporating. And slowly, the direction is becoming less of a choice, but more of a reality ( Read more... ) -
Waiting and waiting and waiting... it never ends.
Last week, I met with my councilor at DVR just to touch base since it had been a few weeks since we had met. She has been helpful at guiding my way through the process with my employer as I would like to be placed in a different position without going through the process of having my employment terminated. She has helped others do this, so I was ( Read more... ) -
In limbo
As I wait for the carpet cleaners to arrive, it seemed a fine time to attempt to begin to unload a long story. I'm sure I won't get through all of it today, but it seems like a good plan to try to improve my mental health. Shrug. Couldn't hurt.
My last day at work was March 23rd. I have not been fired, but when I was pressured to resign, I turned in ( Read more... ) -
Origins
In grade school, I remember having an assignment to tell a family story. I called my maternal grandmother in San Diego and asked if she had any great stories I could share. She told me the story of an English ancestor's emigration from England to America. I wish I could remember the details as the tale she told me was a thrilling adventure ( Read more... ) -
Cupcakes
I've been gluten-free for well over a year now. I was diagnosed with celiac disease in August of 2010 and haven't eaten any glutenous baked goods since. One funny thing is that I don't really miss the breads and pastas, but I have missed baked sweets. Actually, I knew I missed cake, but I hadn't realized just how much I missed other goodies until I ( Read more... ) -
Is this what healthy is like?
I've been living gluten-free for over 6 months now and I am finally getting nutrition from food. This is such a strange realization to know that I have never derived energy from food like I do today. It is no wonder that so much of my diet has consisted of simple sugars from candy and soda, because those are probably much more easy to absorb by ( Read more... ) -
I hate parties
Parties and bars make me feel crazy insecure and I become the girl I was in Jr High, when the entire universe hated me and was threatening to kick my ass or rape me, or both. Why am I such a social misfit? why?
So now that I'm gluten free, I'm starting to make goals for myself. One of them is to meet people and acquire a friend or maybe even two. ( Read more... ) -
Hello, 2011
I expect the adventure to continue in 2011.
2010 didn't begin. I attempted to sleep my way from 2009 into 2010, thinking if I could sleep enough, I might have energy again. I was very tired. As the year progressed, I was also being treated for MS exacerbations, and unlike in the past, this time they were not improving with steroids. As soon as I'd ( Read more... ) -
Happy holidays...
There's another huge life event that I'd like to impart, but it is much more complex and difficult to remember in comparison to attempting to explain why the holidays get me down. The other life changing event was becoming occurred during my last semester at UAA.
I had received the disappointing news that I would not be able to go to medical school ( Read more... )