i was supposed to work tonight at 5. but when i went they told me they didn't need me. ( i didn't want to go in the first place.) so i was super happy. I came home and the first thing i hear is your not going out tonight. WTF. i know its rainy, but its not a super storm and im not going far. then my mom said that casey can't come over. WTF. you can ( Read more... )

If you go to dictionary.com and use the thesaurus for the word happy. that one of the words is intoxicated.
just seeing it made me happy. well i guess it made me intoxicated too. haha

     This week I am on vacation in florida doing all sorts of new and exciting things with my family. At the same time I am doing a lot of thinking about life(school/profession in general) and it sucks. My first semester at gsu was horrible which landed me in academic warning, and just recently after last semester I am on academic supervision. I ( Read more... )

I celebrated christmas last night. it was kinda funny. my family opened one present last night and then eneded up opening all of the presents. haha

and today im doing absolutly nothing. maybe i'll go rollerblade.
:)

      my life is a total wreck. ok not a total wreck. i am going to college. well thats if ga state takes me still even after i send my final transcripts. but thats the only thing in my life right now that is good. so yeah if you didn't know. im seeing a phsyciatrist* again. not only b/c im cutting myself again. back then i cut myself b/c it was a ( Read more... )

Im not going to lie. I've had the best weekend ever. I have a boyfriend with whom I am completley in love with. I've never had someone make me feel soo good.

Besides having a amazing weekend. My dad completly blew up today on the way home from my brothers birthday dinner. I've never seen him like this. My brother is having the worst birthday ever. ( Read more... )

Its such a beautiful day. i should be more happy. currently i have quit smoking. today is only day 2 and i am craving a cigarette soo bad. i keep thinking one won't hurt. but i know one is going to lead to more. I have alot on my mind right now and i can't focus on anything ( Read more... )

so yeah. its been alittle while since i have posted anything. 
today was the first time i have ever went to a tanning bed. it didnt do too much but i got a membership and i can go anytime i want. im soo excited. im not going to be pale anymore.

yesterday was excruciating. my legs have been hurting for the past two weeks and they just worse and worse every time we have a practice. i also have my sabre cut half-way underneath my fingernail, but besides all the pain and agony, we got a lot done. anyways I'm still grounded. not quite sure when i can start to hang out with friends again. ( Read more... )

  finally i have met someone who i am totally in love with. and he loves me back. i met him about a week and half ago. and things are going great. usually i rush into relationships that i never really wanted. but not this one. thats all