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im having one of those days where i hate myself. id like to think that im feeling better overall but i guess today im not. i hate pretending things are alright, when theyre not. every time i open my big mouth, i mess something up. i hate having friends who are petty and are stupid over the littlest of things. i try and tell them but how do you not ( Read more... )

its so lovely outside tonight. i wanna be outside and not stuck here. i wanna be having fun.

im bored.

i hate how hot it is. its not even good hot. i hate busting a sweat by just sitting. if it would rain today, it wouldnt be so bad. im tempted to just sit around in my undies all day.

wow. its been been awhile...

this week has just been horrible. i think that tonight i need to get out. or else. oh and fuck you to everyone (my friends included) going to pigface without me. i love you all too.

hmmmm...halloween turned out to be a bit depressing but oh well. id rather not dwell on it. the rest of the weekend was about as dull as dull gets. and so was today. its getting to cold for me already. and besides that its been raining all weekend and all day and oh yeah, it will tom as well, i suppose. yuck.

i cant wait for friday. i cant wait to get dressed up and go out. i hope its a grrrreat night.

i cant sleep. :(